2.14.2020 – There is a place where

There is a place where
love begins and where love ends
and love asks nothing

Is love worse living?

Is love worth living?

Is life without love worth living?

Is that so hard?

Why is that so hard?

In the movie, “Shenandoah”, Doug McClure ask Jimmy Stewart for permission to marry his daughter.

Jimmy Stewart, who is sitting on his front porch, tells McClure to sit down as he doesn’t like people looking down on him, says to McClure, “Do you like her?”

“Sir, I ….”

“No, no. You just said you loved her. There’s some difference between lovin’ and likin'”

Why is that so hard?

Why is that so hard to understand?

Alicia Keys is the same ball park with the lines, “I keep on fallin’ In and out of love with you. Makes me so confused.”

All these questions.

Even after being married 30 years, all these questions.

I am in love, no question there.

Am I making this way to complicated?

It’s a bit of shock that I had the answer 30 years ago.

Back in the day it was a big deal to have the wedding program laid out on a computer.

What today is a word document with different fonts and sizes was seen as really cool.

My soon-to-be-wife asked me if there was anything I would like to included on the program.

I asked that Carl Sandburg’s Poem, Explanations of Love, be on the back.

The final line of this poem?

“love asks nothing.”

Explanations of Love
Carl Sandburg

There is a place where love begins and a place
where love ends.

There is a touch of two hands that foils all dictionaries.

There is a look of eyes fierce as a big Bethlehem open hearth
furnace or a little green-fire acetylene torch.

There are single careless bywords portentous as a
big bend in the Mississippi River.

Hands, eyes, bywords–out of these love makes
battlegrounds and workshops.

There is a pair of shoes love wears and the coming
is a mystery.

There is a warning love sends and the cost of it
is never written till long afterward.

There are explanations of love in all languages
and not one found wiser than this:

There is a place where love begins and a place
where love ends—and love asks nothing.

2.13.2020 – windshield rain splattered

windshield rain splattered
dark, wind, water, spray covered
little world, alone

My commute this morning was made more interesting by the arrival of a monsoon.

The rain was predicted to start around 7AM but it started early just for me.

Rain isn’t the word I want.

Coming down in buckets.

Pouring.

The floodgates of the heavens were opened.

I could see the lights of the car in front of.

I could the the white lines on either side of me.

I could see my trip odometer that I had reset to zero before I left so I had a good idea where I was.

In this little world, I concentrated on the car in front of me and kept up with the traffic around me.

I was alone.

Felt like I was in this little cocoon.

Cut off and on my own.

I did not recognize this brave new wet world I was navigating through.

I was focused on that car in front me and those two white lines.

Of course this is my week to be on call for online issues.

Of course I got two calls.

I debated not answering.

Things are such that I did take the calls.

I was talking about online issues.

I was thinking BOY ARE YOU DUMB.

I took care of the calls best I could, promising to take care of the issues as soon as I got to the office.

The rain kept coming.

I kept driving.

From my trip odometer I knew I was getting close to my exit and I maneuvered over to the right.

Merged without issue and made to my exit mostly by feel.

When.

The rain stopped.

It was clear.

I took advantage of the clear spell and a red light at the end of the exit ramp and grabbed my phone to start the processes I would need to take care of the phoned in online issues.

Rain was gone.

The light turned green and I tossed my phone into the passenger seat.

As I moved forward slowly I had the time to think.

“What happened to the rain?”

I pulled out and BANG the rain was back and in force.

I had been under the freeway overpass and never noticed.

2.12.2020 – Is not much of it

Is not much of it
the reason, I suppose, there
is not much of me

In reply to a request for an autobiographical statement, Abraham Lincoln sent the following.

Mr. Lincoln wrote in a letter accompanying the autobiography, “There is not much of it, for the reason, I suppose, that there is not much of me.”

I was born Feb. 12, 1809, in Hardin County, Kentucky. My parents were both born in Virginia, of undistinguished families– second families, perhaps I should say. My mother, who died in my tenth year, was of a family of the name of Hanks, some of whom now reside in Adams and others in Macon Counties, Illinois. My paternal grandfather, Abraham Lincoln, emigrated from Rockingham County, Virginia, to Kentucky, about 1781 or 2, where, a year or two later, he was killed by indians, not in battle, but by stealth, when he was laboring to open a farm in the forest. His ancestors, who were Quakers, went to Virginia from Berks County, Pennsylvania. An effort to identify them with the New-England family of the same name ended in nothing more definite, than a similarity of Christian names in both families, such as Enoch, Levi, Mordecai, Solomon, Abraham, and the like.

My father, at the death of his father, was but six years of age; and he grew up, litterally [sic] without education. He removed from Kentucky to what is now Spencer County, Indiana, in my eighth year. We reached our new home about the time the State came into the Union. It was a wild region, with many bears and other wild animals, still in the woods. There I grew up. There were some schools, so called; but no qualification was ever required of a teacher beyond “readin, writin, and cipherin” to the Rule of Three. If a straggler supposed to understand latin happened to sojourn in the neighborhood, he was looked upon as a wizzard [sic]. There was absolutely nothing to excite ambition for education. Of course when I came of age I did not know much. Still somehow, I could read, write, and cipher to the Rule of Three; but that was all. I have not been to school since. The little advance I now have upon this store of education, I have picked up from time to time under the pressure of necessity.

I was raised to farm work, which I continued till I was twenty-two. At twenty one I came to Illinois, and passed the first year in Macon County. Then I got to New-Salem (at that time in Sangamon, now in Menard County), where I remained a year as a sort of Clerk in a store. Then came the Black-Hawk war; and I was elected a Captain of Volunteers–a success which gave me more pleasure than any I have had since. I went the campaign, was elated, ran for the Legislature the same year (1832) and was beaten–the only time I ever have been beaten by the people. The next, and three succeeding biennial elections, I was elected to the Legislature. I was not a candidate afterwards. During this Legislative period I had studied law, and removed to Springfield to practise it. In 1846 I was once elected to the lower House of Congress. Was not a candidate for re-election. From 1849 to 1854, both inclusive, practiced law more assiduously than ever before. Always a whig in politics, and generally on the whig electoral tickets, making active canvasses–I was losing interest in politics, when the repeal of the Missouri Compromise aroused me again. What I have done since then is pretty well known.

If any personal description of me is thought desirable, it may be said, I am, in height, six feet, four inches, nearly; lean in flesh, weighing on an average one hundred and eighty pounds; dark complexion, with coarse black hair, and grey eyes–no other marks or brands recollected.

That line, “What I have done since then is pretty well known.”

Did anyone ever say so much, say so little.

The Gettysburg Address is 300 words and sums up the Civil War.

In his notebook, Mr. Twain recorded his thoughts on Lincoln’s 2nd Inaugural Address.

Twain wrote, “Eloquence Simplicity — Lincoln’s “With malice toward none, with charity for all, & doing the right as God gives us to see the right, all may yet be well. — Very simple & beautiful.”

I guess as President’s go, sometimes we get who we need,

Sometimes we get who we deserve.

And as Barbara Holland wrote in Hail to the Chiefs: Or How to Tell Your Polks from Your Tylers, “Mostly the democratic process works about as well as could be expected, but every so often it stirs up something from the soft bottom of the gene pool, and everyone goes “Yecch! What is it?” and then acts all injured innocence, as if they’d never marked a ballot in all there born days.”

Ms. Holland was writing about Warren G. Harding.

President Harding may not have been first in line in the brains list but he was smart enough to say. “I am not fit for this office and never should have here.”

Where is Mr. Lincoln today?

Our country turn’s it lonely eyes to him.

2.11.2020 – day long drip drip drip

day long drip drip drip
clouds to roof, through the ceiling
buckets by my door

Plumber once told me that he had to remember three things.

Payday was friday.

Don’t chew your fingernails.

Water flows downhill.

Keep those three things in mind and you can succeed as a plumber.

I have been reminded of water flowing downhill for the last week or more.

Been raining so long the roof of my building is full.

Leaks, previously unknown, are making their presence known all around me.

Drip Drip Drip.

I work in the online world.

I am surrounded by cutting edge technology.

And buckets.

I pretend that the building was designed by Frank Lloyd Wright.

Wright’s buildings were famous for bad roofs.

One home owner wrote about his FLW designed house, “The roof design itself had some interesting design issues that almost guaranteed water penetration.”

On the other hand, another FLW home owner wrote about their leaky roof, “that is what happens when you leave a work of art out in the rain.”

Drip Drip Drip.

All day long.

Guaranteed water penetration.

I like that.

In my techno world, it fits.

No leaks here.

Lots of guaranteed water penetration.

2.10.2020 – blank, empty plaques

blank, empty plaques
reminder to remember
the why, the reason

In the Old Chapel at the United States Military Academy at West Point, New York, there are granite shields on the wall.

Each shield displays the name and rank of each of the Generals that served in the United States War of Independence.

One those shields is blank.

Its is blank on purpose.

It is a shield in remembrance of Major General Benedict Arnold.

A man who served and fought on our side in the Revolution.

A man who played a major role in the fighting in the American victory over the Red Coats at the Battle of Saratoga.

A man promoted to Major General by George Washington.

A man whose name now is used to describe another as a traitor and turncoat.

Arnold sold out.

For his rank and efforts before he switched sides, Arnold still gets a plaque in the Old Chapel.

For his acts and deeds, Arnold’s name has been removed from the plaque.

When anyone asks why the plaque is blank, Arnold’s story is told.

Where am I going with this?

Once again Pete Rose is trying to get into the National Baseball Hall of Fame.

Above almost any player, based on what any player did on the playing field, Pete Rose has earned a place in the Hall of Fame.

Because of what he did off the field, well, check that as he it appears Pete was BETTING on GAMES from the playing field or at least the dug out.

Anyway, Pete sold out.

For me, it isn’t so much that Pete was banned for the rest of life from Major League Baseball for betting.

It is because of WHO delivered this judgement.

I always liked A. Bartlett Giamatti.

When I discovered his essay, short book, Take Time for Paradise, I liked him even more.

Giamatti wrote. “If we have known freedom, then we love it; it we love freedom, then we fear, at some level (individually or collectively) its loss. And then we cherish sport. As our forbears did, we remind ourselves through sport of what, here on earth, is our noblest hope. Through sport, we create our daily portion of freedom.”

And about baseball, he wrote, “It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart. The game begins in the spring, when everything else begins again, and it blossoms in the summer, filling the afternoons and evenings, and then as soon as the chill rains come, it stops and leaves you to face the fall alone. You count on it, rely on it to buffer the passage of time, to keep the memory of sunshine and high skies alive, and then just when the days are all twilight, when you need it most, it stops.”

It was as Baseball Commissioner that Giamatti banned Pete Rose from baseball.

Banned from the Baseball Hall of Fame.

At the time, Rose agreed with the judgement as it stopped the investigation.

Times passes.

Point of view changes.

Memory fades.

As Rose himself said once, “How you going to keep all those hits out of the hall?”

Is it time to forgive and forget and put Rose in the Hall?

And Barry Bonds and Mark McGwire and all the 1919 Chicago White Sox?

I do think Rose deserves a plaque in the hall.

Maybe all these guys.

A nice blank, empty plaque.

Let people see the plaque.

Let people ask who the plaque is for.

Let people hear the story of why the plaque is blank.

A blank, empty plaque.

A reminder to remember.