7.31.2026 – I was free of all the

I was free of all the
anxieties worries and
sorrows that belong

I was free.

I had recovered my liberty.

I belonged to God, not to myself: and to belong to Him is to be free, free of all the anxieties and worries and sorrows that belong to this earth, and the love of the things that are in it.

What was the difference between one place and another, one habit and another, if your life belonged to God, and if you placed yourself completely in His hands?

The only thing that mattered was the fact of the sacrifice, the essential dedication of one’s self, one’s will.

The rest was only accidental.

The Seven Storey Mountain by Thomas Merton (Harcourt, Brace and Company New York, 1948).

Wellllll, sorry, but I do not feel free.

I do not feel that I have recovered my liberty.

See, I have promises to keep.

And miles to go before I sleep.

I feel I could place myself completely in God’s hands, but the bills keep coming.

The rent has to be paid.

I understand that the only things that matters is the sacrifices of life, the essential dedication of one’ self and will.

But it is no accident that the mail keeps bringing those obligations.

But it is no accident that the texts keep bringing those requests.

It is no accident.

And I do not feel free.

Still it is a consummation devoutly to be wished.

Some someday.

7.31.2026 – illness violence

illness violence
deceit misery want arrived
they would never leave

That jar.

She kept it on a shelf in their bedroom. When Epimetheus had asked about it she laughed. ‘Just a silly thing that Hephaestus made to remind me of Olympus. It’s of no value.’

‘Pretty though,’ said Epimetheus, giving it no further thought.

One afternoon, when her husband was away practising the discus with his friends, Pandora approached the jar and ran her finger round the rim of its sealed lid. Why had Zeus even mentioned that there was nothing interesting inside it? He would never have said such a thing if truly there weren’t. She pieced the logic of it together in her mind.

If you give a friend an empty jar you would never concern yourself with mentioning that the jar was empty. Your friend might look inside one day and see that for themselves. So why should Zeus take the trouble to repeat that this jar contained nothing of any interest? There could be only one explanation. There was something of great interest inside. Something of value or power. Something either enchanting or enchanted.

But, no – she had sworn never to open it. ‘A promise is a promise,’ she told herself, and straight away felt very virtuous. She believed it her duty to resist the spell of the jar which now, really, seemed almost to be singing out to her in the most alluring way. It was excessively vexing to have an object so bewitching in her bedroom where it could taunt and tempt her every morning and every night.

Temptation loses much of its power when removed from sight. Pandora went to the small back garden and – next to a sundial that a neighbour had given them as a wedding gift – she dug a hole and buried the jar deep in the ground. She patted the earth flat and wheeled the heavy sundial on its plinth over the hiding place. There!

For the next week she was as gay and skittish and happy as a person had ever been. Epimetheus fell even more in love with her and invited their friends over to feast and hear a song he had written in her honour. It was a happy and successful party. The last festival that the Golden Age was ever to know.

That night, perhaps a little flushed with the praise that had flowed so freely in her direction, Pandora found it hard to sleep. Through the window of her bedroom the moonlight shone down on the garden. The sundial’s gnomon gleamed like a silver blade and once again she thought she heard the music of the jar.

Epimetheus was sleeping happily beside her. The moonbeams danced in the garden. Unable to stand it any longer Pandora leapt from her matrimonial bed and was out in the garden, unrolling the base of the sundial and scrabbling at the earth, before she had time to tell herself that this was the wrong thing to do.

She pulled the jar from its hiding place and twisted at the lid. Its waxen seal gave way and she pulled it free. There was a fast fluttering, a furious flapping of wings and a wild wheeling and whirling in her ears.

Oh! Glorious flying creatures!

But no … they were not glorious at all. Pandora cried out in pain and fright as she felt something leathery brush her neck, followed by a sharp and terrible prick of pain as some sting or bite pierced her skin. More and more flying shapes buzzed from the mouth of the jar – a great cloud of them chattering, screaming and howling in her ears. Through the swirling fog of these dreadful creatures she saw the face of her husband as he came outside to see what was happening. It was white with horror and fright. With a great cry Pandora summoned up the courage and strength to close the lid and seal the jar.

On the garden wall, in the shape of a wolf, Zeus looked on, smiling the most terrible and wicked smile as, like a cloud of locusts, the shrieking, wailing creatures clawed the air and circled the garden below them in a great vortex before flying up and away over the town, over the countryside and around the world, settling like a pestilence wherever man had habitation.

And what were they, these shapes? They were mutant descendants of the dark and evil children of both Nyx and Erebus. They were born of:

Apate, Deceit;

Geras, Old Age;

Oizys, Misery;

Momos, Blame;

Keres, Violent Death.

They were the offshoots of Ate, Ruin, and Eris, Discord.

These were their names:

PONOS, Hardship;

LIMOS, Starvation;

ALGOS, Pain;

DYSNOMIA, Anarchy;

PSEUDEA, Lies;

NEIKEA, Quarrels;

AMPHILOGIAI, Disputes;

MAKHAI, Wars;

HYSMINAI, Battles;

ANDROKTASIAI and PHONOI, Manslaughters and Murders.

Illness, Violence, Deceit, Misery and Want had arrived. They would never leave the earth.

What Pandora did not know was that, when she shut the lid of the jar so hastily, she for ever imprisoned inside one last daughter of Nyx. One last little creature was left behind to beat its wings hopelessly in the jar for ever.

Its name was ELPIS, Hope.

From the book Mythos: The Greek Myths Reimagined by Stephen Fry (Penguin Books: New York, 2019).

On May 28, 2017 at the Hay Festival, Hay-on-Wye, Stephen Fry gave a lecture titled, The Way Ahead, in which he positioned the Pandora story with the advent of technological advances through history.

Mr. Fry said:

The comparison seems rather good, don’t you think? If Gutenberg’s revolution was Pandora 2.0 and the Industrial Revolution 3.0 then the information age is Pandora 4.0.

So what is the thesis I am nailing up? Well, there is no authority for me to protest to, no equivalent of Pope Leo X for it to be delivered to, and I am certainly no Martin Luther. The only thesis I can think worth nailing up is absurdly simple. It is a cry as much from the heart as from the head and it is just one word – Prepare. We have an advantage over our hunter gatherer and farming ancestors, for whether it is Winter that is coming, or a new Spring, is entirely in our hands, so long as we prepare.

I want to say the for the United States, we started on Pandora 4.1 in November of 2016 and it has been winter ever since.

Is a new spring coming?

The final word is the same.

Prepare!

Hope?

Hope!

As Red said in the Shawshank Redemption … “hope is a dangerous thing, hope can drive a man insane.

But Andy replies, “Andy argues that “ … hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies.”

Is hope still locked up in that jar?

7.30.2026 – unregulated

unregulated
unthinkability – soon
it will be questioned …

Watching the unfolding news cycle of the seemingly never ending War with Iran it seems to me that a few months ago, for most of us, the prospect of another war, to quote General of the Army, Omar Bradley, that was the wrong war, in the wrong place, at the wrong time, with the wrong enemy, was unthinkable.

And that word called to mind a time when Winston Churchill used that word, unthinkable.

It was in a House of Commons debate on Foreign Policy on March 14, 1934 that Mr. Churchill said:

So, in the end, what have we got?

We have not got disarmament.

We have the rearmament of Germany.

That is the monstrous child which has emanated from this immense labour — the rearmament of Germany.

Why, it is only a little while ago that I heard Ministers say and read diplomatic documents which said that rearmament was unthinkable — “Whatever happens we cannot have that. Rearmament is unthinkable.”

Now all our hope is to regulate the unthinkable.

Regulated unthinkability — that is what is the proposal now; and very soon it will be a question of making up our minds to unregulate unthinkability.

I think it is always an error in diplomatic policy to press a matter when it is quite clear that no further progress is to be made.

It is also a great error if you ever give the impression abroad that you are using language which is more concerned with your domestic political state of things than with the actual fortunes and merits of the various great countries upon the Continent to whom you offer advice.

Unregulated unthinkability.

Is there a better way to describe the current state of affairs in the government of the United States?

Unregulated unthinkability.

And that other sentence?

I think it is always an error in diplomatic policy to press a matter when it is quite clear that no further progress is to be made.

Mr. Churchill had been there, done that and he thought it is always an error in diplomatic policy to press a matter when it is quite clear that no further progress is to be made.

It is also a great error if you ever give the impression abroad that you are using language which is more concerned with your domestic political state of things than with the actual fortunes and merits of the various great countries upon the Continent to whom you offer advice.

Maybe it is said to well to be understood today?

Today, Mr. Churchill is ancient and you remember what CS Lewis wrote about ancient wrtier?

To regard the ancient writer as a possible source of knowledge – to anticipate that what he said could possibly modify your thoughts or your behavior-this would be rejected as unutterably simple-minded. … [Therefore, even though] learning makes a free commerce between the ages… every generation [is cut] off from all others… [and] …characteristic errors of one [are not] corrected by the characteristic truths of another.

So where does that leave us?

In the realm and clutches of unregulated unthinkability.

Where else?

7.29.2026 – clumsiness of world

clumsiness of world
behavior compared to
powers of planning

The New York Times article, In Ohio, Toxic Wastewater Is Bubbling Up Out of the Ground by Quinn Glabicki, climate reporter for The New York Times, is a good, if scary read.

Mr. Glabicki writes:

The fracking boom has transformed the United States into the world’s largest producer of natural gas. But fracking also produces huge volumes of salty wastewater laden with heavy metals, radioactive materials and cancer-causing benzene, as well as hazardous chemical additives from the fracking process.

Ohio became a destination for wastewater because decades ago, long before fracking, it received permission from the federal government to regulate its own injection wells, which were then just a small part of the oil and gas industry. As a result, today it’s easier to drill injection wells in Ohio than in states like Pennsylvania where there’s federal oversight.

The industry says injection wells are tightly regulated, and that thousands of feet of rock and shale safely contain the wastewater. Injection wells, “when properly sited, constructed, operated, and regulated, do not pose a significant threat to drinking water,” said Rob Brundrett, president of the Ohio Oil and Gas Association.

At a Republican Party executive meeting last August, Ohio State Senator Brian Chavez, who stepped down as DeepRock’s chief executive after taking elected office in 2023, downplayed the threat posed by injection wells, describing the brine as “ancient seawater,” according to an ethics complaint filed against him with the state’s legislative ethics committee. Mr. Chavez, who chairs the senate energy committee, also compared the radioactivity levels of the waste to that of a banana, according to the complaint, which was filed by residents of Washington County over his relationship with DeepRock.

A spokesman for Ohio Senate Republicans called the ethics complaint meritless.

In a statement, Laura Goins, an attorney for DeepRock, said, “We respect the concerns that have been raised by members of the community and believe those concerns deserve to be addressed through a science-based regulatory process.” She said “DeepRock remains committed to protecting public health, drinking water resources, and the environment.”

Got to love the language and words here.

when properly sited, constructed, operated, and regulated, do not pose a significant threat to drinking water,

… remains committed to protecting public health, drinking water resources, and the environment.

Yeah ………… sure.

Remember any one of us who grew up in the United States between 1923 and 1975 will show the effects of leaded gas in our bones.

Centuries from now, if the world still exists, archeologists will be able to date skeletons by measuring the lead in our bones.

So all this Fracking that leads to large amounts of natural gas and some oil has an unseen price tag.

Who would have guessed that pumping wastewater from fracking underground could have unforeseen negative impace.

Of course had they been predicted, they would no longer have been unforeseen.

And isn’t the word, unforeseen, a great word?

According to the word history website, etymonline: “not foreknown,” late 14c., from un- (1) “not” + past participle of foresee. Similar formation in Middle Dutch onvoresien, Dutch onvoorzien, Middle High German unvorsen. A verb unforesee “fail to anticipate” is attested in 17c.

I like that dutch version.

Onvoresien.

Fail to anticipate.

Unforeseen points to it wasn’t our fault, who knew?

While, Fail to anticipate

Seems like someone should have known better.

I am reading the book Random Harvest by James Hilton (Boston: Little, Brown And Company, 1941).

Neither here nor there but if you are casting about for something to read this summer I recommend downloading the epub version from FadedPage (click here) for free.

Mr. Hilton also wrote Lost Horizons of Shangri-La fame and Good bye Mr. Chips.

Random Harvest starts with the epigram:

“According to a British Official Report, bombs fell at Random.” — GERMAN OFFICIAL REPORT

Anyway, reading along I came to this passage that is the source for today’s haiku.

Mr. Hilton writes about the hero of Random Harvest that:

He was increasingly interested in the background of knowledge and theory behind the lives of men, and the astounding clumsiness of world behavior compared with the powers of the planning mind. To use Werneth’s favorite word, he found the paradox teasing.

There is a lot packed into those two lines, especially:

the astounding clumsiness of world behavior compared with the powers of the planning mind.

To use Werneth’s favorite word, he found the paradox teasing.

That Mr. Clausewitz writes that no plan lasts 5 minutes after the battle starts.

Still, when you read about all the planing, meetings, proposals, public hearings and investigations when anything from a sidewalk crossing to a super highway to a bridge to some corporate marketing plan, the clumsiness of world behavior compared with the powers of the planning mind is truly astounding.

The paradox is assuredly teasing.

It seems even God himself looking down on the world today might murmur … something went wrong here.

7.28.2026 – to see, the craving

to see, the craving
of sailors, as of rest of
blind humanity

Adapted from a passage in Chapter 27 of The Mirror of the Sea by Joseph Conrad (New York: Harper & Brothers, 1906), where Mr. Conrad writes:

To see! to see! —

this is the craving of the sailor, as of the rest of blind humanity.

To have his path made clear for him is the aspiration of every human being in our beclouded and tempestuous existence.

I have heard a reserved, silent man, with no nerves to speak of, after three days of hard running in thick south-westerly weather, burst out passionately: “I wish to God we could get sight of something!”

Looking ahead to next day, the next week, the next month … I wish to God I could get sight of something.

I know it should be enough that I know that God sees far far ahead of anything I could see and I should let it sit there with God.

Truthfully I would LOVE to be able to let it sit there.

But as Mr. Conrad also writes: Love and regret go hand in hand in this world of changes swifter than the shifting of the clouds reflected in the mirror of the sea.