9.25.2026 – pay no attention

pay no attention
to man behind the curtain …
life’s better that way

Of late, one aspect of my life has been put under a magnifying glass and it is terrifying to live with.

Not hungry and eat too much.

Can’t sleep but always sleepy.

All because I can see under the ice as it gets thinner.

Prior to this, for all I cared, the ice was thick and opaque and I skated smoothly over the surface.

Now the ice is transparent and getting thinner.

Not there is anything under the ice that wasn’t there before.

It is three months to Christmas.

The world will be different in those three months.

This country will have gone through it’s most contentious mid terms elections since the Civil War DID divide the country into two parts.

Artificial Intelligence will have had another three months to kill all of us.

Maybe my personal crisis will be resolved.

And maybe a hurricane will come and wipe out the barrier island I live on.

There all sorts of unforeseen changes coming that if I could FORESEE would mean they would not be unforeseen.

But maybe it’s better NOT foreseeing.

There is nothing new under the ice.

It’s just that I can see through the ice and see what’s down there.

Herman Melville, in his book Moby Dick, described life this way:

. All the oarsmen are involved in its perilous contortions; so that to the timid eye of the landsman, they seem as Indian jugglers, with the deadliest snakes sportively festooning their limbs. Nor can any son of mortal woman, for the first time, seat himself amid those hempen intricacies, and while straining his utmost at the oar, bethink him that at any unknown instant the harpoon may be darted, and all these horrible contortions be put in play like ringed lightnings; he cannot be thus circumstanced without a shudder that makes the very marrow in his bones to quiver in him like a shaken jelly. Yet habit—strange thing! what cannot habit accomplish?—Gayer sallies, more merry mirth, better jokes, and brighter repartees, you never heard over your mahogany, than you will hear over the half-inch white cedar of the whale-boat, when thus hung in hangman’s nooses; and, like the six burghers of Calais before King Edward, the six men composing the crew pull into the jaws of death, with a halter around every neck, as you may say.

Perhaps a very little thought will now enable you to account for those repeated whaling disasters—some few of which are casually chronicled—of this man or that man being taken out of the boat by the line, and lost. For, when the line is darting out, to be seated then in the boat, is like being seated in the midst of the manifold whizzings of a steam-engine in full play, when every flying beam, and shaft, and wheel, is grazing you. It is worse; for you cannot sit motionless in the heart of these perils, because the boat is rocking like a cradle, and you are pitched one way and the other, without the slightest warning; and only by a certain self-adjusting buoyancy and simultaneousness of volition and action, can you escape being made a Mazeppa of, and run away with where the all-seeing sun himself could never pierce you out.

Again: as the profound calm which only apparently precedes and prophesies of the storm, is perhaps more awful than the storm itself; for, indeed, the calm is but the wrapper and envelope of the storm; and contains it in itself, as the seemingly harmless rifle holds the fatal powder, and the ball, and the explosion; so the graceful repose of the line, as it silently serpentines about the oarsmen before being brought into actual play—this is a thing which carries more of true terror than any other aspect of this dangerous affair. But why say more? All men live enveloped in whale-lines. All are born with halters round their necks; but it is only when caught in the swift, sudden turn of death, that mortals realize the silent, subtle, ever-present perils of life. And if you be a philosopher, though seated in the whale-boat, you would not at heart feel one whit more of terror, than though seated before your evening fire with a poker, and not a harpoon, by your side.

But why say more?

All men live enveloped in whale-lines.

All are born with halters round their necks;

but it is only when caught in the swift, sudden turn of death, that mortals realize the silent, subtle, ever-present perils of life.

And if you be a philosopher,

though seated in the whale-boat,

you would not at heart feel one whit more of terror, than though seated before your evening fire with a poker,

and not a harpoon, by your side.

What does he mean?

Well, summing it all up, I think Mr. Melville is saying, Pay No Attention to the Man Behind the Curtain.

Life’s better that way.

9.24.2026 – uneasy season

uneasy season
unconsciously retreat from
world got out of hand

In the essay, A Slight Sound at Evening by EB White as published in The Essays of E.B. White by E.B. White ( Harper Colophon Book: New York, 1979), commented on the 100th anniversary of the publication of Walden by Henry David Thoreau writing:

In our uneasy season, when all men unconsciously seek a retreat from a world that has got almost completely out of hand, his house in the Concord woods is a haven.

In our culture of gadgetry and the multiplicity of convenience,

his cry “Simplicity, simplicity, simplicity!” has the insistence of a fire alarm.

In the brooding atmosphere of war and the gathering radioactive storm, the innocence and serenity of his summer afternoons are enough to burst the remembering heart, and one gazes back upon that pleasing interlude

— its confidence, its purity, its deliberateness

— with awe and wonder, as one would look upon the face of a child asleep.

This essay was written in 1954.

72 years the onslaught of the culture of gadgetry and the multiplicity of convenience, could only be a nightmare when viewed from 1954 let alone 1854.

Yet in 185, Mr. Thoreau wrote in his book, “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.”

I am reminded of the short story, The Grizzly and the Gadgets by Mr. White’s office mate, James Thurber.

The Grizzly and the Gadgets

A grizzly bear who had been on a bender for several weeks following a Christmas party in his home at which his brother-in-law had set the Christmas tree on fire, his children had driven the family car through the front door and out the back, and all the attractive female bears had gone into hibernation before sunset returned home prepared to forgive, and live and let live. He found, to his mild annoyance, that the doorbell had been replaced by an ornamental knocker. When he lifted the knocker, he was startled to hear it play two bars of “Silent Night.”

When nobody answered his knock, he turned the doorknob, which said “Happy New Year” in a metallic voice, and a two-tone gong rang “Hello” somewhere deep within the house.

He called to his mate, who was always the first to lay the old aside, as well as the first by whom the new was tried, and got no answer. This was because the walls of his house had been soundproofed by a soundproofer who had soundproofed them so well nobody could hear anybody say anything six feet away. Inside the living room the grizzly bear turned on the light switch, and the lights went on all right, but the turning of the switch had also released an odor of pine cones, which this particular bear had always found offensive. The head of the house, now becoming almost as angry as he had been on Christmas Day, sank into an easy chair and began bouncing up and down and up and down, for it was a brand-new contraption called “Sitpretty” which made you bounce up and down and up and down when you sat on it. Now thoroughly exasperated, the bear jumped up from the chair and began searching for a cigarette. He found a cigarette box, a new-fangled cigarette box he had never seen before, which was made of metal and plastic in the shape of a castle, complete with portal and drawbridge and tower. The trouble was that the bear couldn’t get the thing open. Then he made out, in tiny raised letters on the portal, a legend in rhyme: “You can have a cigarette on me If you can find the castle key.” The bear could not find the castle[Pg 92] key, and he threw the trick cigarette box through a windowpane out into the front yard, letting in a blast of cold air, and he howled when it hit the back of his neck. He was a little mollified when he found that he had a cigar in his pocket, but no matches, and so he began looking around the living room for a matchbox. At last he saw one on a shelf. There were matches in it, all right, but no scratching surface on which to scratch them. On the bottom of the box, however, there was a neat legend explaining this lack. The message on the box read: “Safety safety matches are doubly safe because there is no dangerous dangerous sandpaper surface to scratch them on. Strike them on a windowpane or on the seat of your pants.”

Enraged, infuriated, beside himself, seeing red and thinking black, the grizzly bear began taking the living room apart. He pounded the matchbox into splinters, knocked over lamps, pulled pictures off the wall, threw rugs out of the broken window, swept vases and a clock off the mantelpiece, and overturned chairs and tables, growling and howling and roaring, shouting and bawling and cursing, until his wife was aroused from a deep dream of marrying a panda, neighbors appeared from blocks around, and the attractive female bears who had gone into hibernation began coming out of it to see what was going on.

The bear, deaf to the pleas of his mate, heedless of his neighbors’ advice, and unafraid of the police, kicked over whatever was still standing in the house, and went roaring away for good, taking the most attractive of the attractive female bears, one named Honey, with him.

MORAL: Nowadays most men lead lives of noisy desperation.

This culture of gadgetry and the multiplicity of convenience.

You bet, the mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.

Boy howdy but nowadays most men lead lives of noisy desperation.

9.23.2026 – all afternoon the

all afternoon the
sea was a muddle of birds
black, spiky, long-necked

Cormorants by Mary Oliver as published in the collection, Thirst by Mary Oliver (Boston: Beacon Press, 2002).

All afternoon the sea was a muddle of birds
black and spiky,
long-necked, slippery.

Down they went
into the waters for the poor
blunt-headed silver
they live on, for a little while.

God, how did it ever come to you to
invent Time?

I dream at night
of the birds, of the beautiful, dark seas
they push through.

Did you know that shore birds have a shared home, the beach and because they have different length beaks, they are able to take part is something called resource partitioning which lets many different species live and eat happily on the exact same strip of shoreline.

God, when you invented time, where did you find the time to come up resource partitioning as well?

9.22.2026 – missing my missing

missing my missing
hour each morning disappears
where does the time go

I wake up, or I am already awake, staring at my bedside clock and I know it is time to get out of bed.

I look at the time and no matter how hard I look, the time keeps changing out from under me.

Then suddenly, it is an hour later and I am dressed and my back pack is on one shoulder and the wife says she is ready and I am off to work with her driving.

In that hour I know that I:

Showered.

Drank a lot of coffee (moving closer to the brink of awareness with each sip).

Read several newspapers.

Played wordle and some other games.

Ate some breakfast or broke my fast with anything from left over pizza, to cereal, to raisin bread toast or maybe an ice cream sandwich.

Got dressed.

Checked the tide.

Checked the route to work for accidents or alligators or accidents with alligators.

Checked the time.

And it is a hour later.

That hour seems to be missing.

And I am missing that missing hour.

And I feel like I haven’t moved a muscle or thought a thought.

Maybe I am looking at this wrong.

Instead of worrying, wondering where I was when the time went.

I should say look at what I did all so effortlessly.

Later in my lunch time walk along the beach I watch the local catermerans moving up and down the Atlantic Coast.

All so effortlessly, just like my mornings.

I ain’t missing nuthin.

9.21.2026 – to start my week with

to start my week with
osanna in excelsis
leads me to worry …

Readers of this blog know that I listen to Classic FM, an online radio station from London.

I tell folks I like it as it is five hours ahead in London so I know that somewhere in the world, someone has indeed made it through the next five hours.

This morning, I got all plugged in and turned on my speakers to hear the Osanna from Bach’s Mass in B minor. A 3 minute chorus where the lyric is nothing but the combination of the words Osanna in excelsis.

According to Wikipedia, The composition was completed in 1749, the year before Bach’s death, and was to a large extent based on earlier work, such as a Sanctus Bach had composed in 1724. Sections that were specifically composed to complete the Mass in the late 1740s include the “Et incarnatus est” part of the Credo. It is structured in four major sections and scored for five soloists, a choir that is five-part in many sections and divided in the “Osanna”, and a Baroque ensemble including brass and wind instruments.

Imagine my shock when I found that Mr. Bach had used this music is something titled, Preise dein Glücke, gesegnetes Sachsen (Praise your good fortune, blessed Saxony) that was first performed in 1734 with a lot more words …

Preise dein Glücke, gesegnetes Sachsen,
Praise your good fortune, blessed Saxony,

Weil Gott den Thron deines Königs erhält.
since God upholds the throne of your king.

Fröhliches Land,
Joyful land

Danke dem Himmel und küsse die Hand,
thank heaven and kiss the hand

Die deine Wohlfahrt noch täglich lässt wachsen
which from day to day makes your prosperity increase

Und deine Bürger in Sicherheit stellt.
and establishes your citizens in safety.

BE THAT AS IT MAY … the music was a great way to start my work week,

BUT THAT BEING SAID, in my ear a warning that the old saying goes A Bad Beginning Makes a Good Ending.

I don’t know what it means when your week has a good beginning, does that make for a bad ending?

It leads me to worry.

Maybe I don’t want to stick around to find out.