9.24.2026 – uneasy season

uneasy season
unconsciously retreat from
world got out of hand

In the essay, A Slight Sound at Evening by EB White as published in The Essays of E.B. White by E.B. White ( Harper Colophon Book: New York, 1979), commented on the 100th anniversary of the publication of Walden by Henry David Thoreau writing:

In our uneasy season, when all men unconsciously seek a retreat from a world that has got almost completely out of hand, his house in the Concord woods is a haven.

In our culture of gadgetry and the multiplicity of convenience,

his cry “Simplicity, simplicity, simplicity!” has the insistence of a fire alarm.

In the brooding atmosphere of war and the gathering radioactive storm, the innocence and serenity of his summer afternoons are enough to burst the remembering heart, and one gazes back upon that pleasing interlude

— its confidence, its purity, its deliberateness

— with awe and wonder, as one would look upon the face of a child asleep.

This essay was written in 1954.

72 years the onslaught of the culture of gadgetry and the multiplicity of convenience, could only be a nightmare when viewed from 1954 let alone 1854.

Yet in 185, Mr. Thoreau wrote in his book, “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.”

I am reminded of the short story, The Grizzly and the Gadgets by Mr. White’s office mate, James Thurber.

The Grizzly and the Gadgets

A grizzly bear who had been on a bender for several weeks following a Christmas party in his home at which his brother-in-law had set the Christmas tree on fire, his children had driven the family car through the front door and out the back, and all the attractive female bears had gone into hibernation before sunset returned home prepared to forgive, and live and let live. He found, to his mild annoyance, that the doorbell had been replaced by an ornamental knocker. When he lifted the knocker, he was startled to hear it play two bars of “Silent Night.”

When nobody answered his knock, he turned the doorknob, which said “Happy New Year” in a metallic voice, and a two-tone gong rang “Hello” somewhere deep within the house.

He called to his mate, who was always the first to lay the old aside, as well as the first by whom the new was tried, and got no answer. This was because the walls of his house had been soundproofed by a soundproofer who had soundproofed them so well nobody could hear anybody say anything six feet away. Inside the living room the grizzly bear turned on the light switch, and the lights went on all right, but the turning of the switch had also released an odor of pine cones, which this particular bear had always found offensive. The head of the house, now becoming almost as angry as he had been on Christmas Day, sank into an easy chair and began bouncing up and down and up and down, for it was a brand-new contraption called “Sitpretty” which made you bounce up and down and up and down when you sat on it. Now thoroughly exasperated, the bear jumped up from the chair and began searching for a cigarette. He found a cigarette box, a new-fangled cigarette box he had never seen before, which was made of metal and plastic in the shape of a castle, complete with portal and drawbridge and tower. The trouble was that the bear couldn’t get the thing open. Then he made out, in tiny raised letters on the portal, a legend in rhyme: “You can have a cigarette on me If you can find the castle key.” The bear could not find the castle[Pg 92] key, and he threw the trick cigarette box through a windowpane out into the front yard, letting in a blast of cold air, and he howled when it hit the back of his neck. He was a little mollified when he found that he had a cigar in his pocket, but no matches, and so he began looking around the living room for a matchbox. At last he saw one on a shelf. There were matches in it, all right, but no scratching surface on which to scratch them. On the bottom of the box, however, there was a neat legend explaining this lack. The message on the box read: “Safety safety matches are doubly safe because there is no dangerous dangerous sandpaper surface to scratch them on. Strike them on a windowpane or on the seat of your pants.”

Enraged, infuriated, beside himself, seeing red and thinking black, the grizzly bear began taking the living room apart. He pounded the matchbox into splinters, knocked over lamps, pulled pictures off the wall, threw rugs out of the broken window, swept vases and a clock off the mantelpiece, and overturned chairs and tables, growling and howling and roaring, shouting and bawling and cursing, until his wife was aroused from a deep dream of marrying a panda, neighbors appeared from blocks around, and the attractive female bears who had gone into hibernation began coming out of it to see what was going on.

The bear, deaf to the pleas of his mate, heedless of his neighbors’ advice, and unafraid of the police, kicked over whatever was still standing in the house, and went roaring away for good, taking the most attractive of the attractive female bears, one named Honey, with him.

MORAL: Nowadays most men lead lives of noisy desperation.

This culture of gadgetry and the multiplicity of convenience.

You bet, the mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.

Boy howdy but nowadays most men lead lives of noisy desperation.

9.23.2026 – all afternoon the

all afternoon the
sea was a muddle of birds
black, spiky, long-necked

Cormorants by Mary Oliver as published in the collection, Thirst by Mary Oliver (Boston: Beacon Press, 2002).

All afternoon the sea was a muddle of birds
black and spiky,
long-necked, slippery.

Down they went
into the waters for the poor
blunt-headed silver
they live on, for a little while.

God, how did it ever come to you to
invent Time?

I dream at night
of the birds, of the beautiful, dark seas
they push through.

Did you know that shore birds have a shared home, the beach and because they have different length beaks, they are able to take part is something called resource partitioning which lets many different species live and eat happily on the exact same strip of shoreline.

God, when you invented time, where did you find the time to come up resource partitioning as well?

9.22.2026 – missing my missing

missing my missing
hour each morning disappears
where does the time go

I wake up, or I am already awake, staring at my bedside clock and I know it is time to get out of bed.

I look at the time and no matter how hard I look, the time keeps changing out from under me.

Then suddenly, it is an hour later and I am dressed and my back pack is on one shoulder and the wife says she is ready and I am off to work with her driving.

In that hour I know that I:

Showered.

Drank a lot of coffee (moving closer to the brink of awareness with each sip).

Read several newspapers.

Played wordle and some other games.

Ate some breakfast or broke my fast with anything from left over pizza, to cereal, to raisin bread toast or maybe an ice cream sandwich.

Got dressed.

Checked the tide.

Checked the route to work for accidents or alligators or accidents with alligators.

Checked the time.

And it is a hour later.

That hour seems to be missing.

And I am missing that missing hour.

And I feel like I haven’t moved a muscle or thought a thought.

Maybe I am looking at this wrong.

Instead of worrying, wondering where I was when the time went.

I should say look at what I did all so effortlessly.

Later in my lunch time walk along the beach I watch the local catermerans moving up and down the Atlantic Coast.

All so effortlessly, just like my mornings.

I ain’t missing nuthin.

9.21.2026 – to start my week with

to start my week with
osanna in excelsis
leads me to worry …

Readers of this blog know that I listen to Classic FM, an online radio station from London.

I tell folks I like it as it is five hours ahead in London so I know that somewhere in the world, someone has indeed made it through the next five hours.

This morning, I got all plugged in and turned on my speakers to hear the Osanna from Bach’s Mass in B minor. A 3 minute chorus where the lyric is nothing but the combination of the words Osanna in excelsis.

According to Wikipedia, The composition was completed in 1749, the year before Bach’s death, and was to a large extent based on earlier work, such as a Sanctus Bach had composed in 1724. Sections that were specifically composed to complete the Mass in the late 1740s include the “Et incarnatus est” part of the Credo. It is structured in four major sections and scored for five soloists, a choir that is five-part in many sections and divided in the “Osanna”, and a Baroque ensemble including brass and wind instruments.

Imagine my shock when I found that Mr. Bach had used this music is something titled, Preise dein Glücke, gesegnetes Sachsen (Praise your good fortune, blessed Saxony) that was first performed in 1734 with a lot more words …

Preise dein Glücke, gesegnetes Sachsen,
Praise your good fortune, blessed Saxony,

Weil Gott den Thron deines Königs erhält.
since God upholds the throne of your king.

Fröhliches Land,
Joyful land

Danke dem Himmel und küsse die Hand,
thank heaven and kiss the hand

Die deine Wohlfahrt noch täglich lässt wachsen
which from day to day makes your prosperity increase

Und deine Bürger in Sicherheit stellt.
and establishes your citizens in safety.

BE THAT AS IT MAY … the music was a great way to start my work week,

BUT THAT BEING SAID, in my ear a warning that the old saying goes A Bad Beginning Makes a Good Ending.

I don’t know what it means when your week has a good beginning, does that make for a bad ending?

It leads me to worry.

Maybe I don’t want to stick around to find out.

9.20.2026 – play that breaks your heart

play that breaks your heart
guys played 59 minutes
59 seconds

Adapted from the article, NC State postgame comments after Vanderbilt loss leave more questions than answers by Jadyn Watson-Fisher in the Raleigh News and Observer (September 19, 2026 11:46 PM) where Ms. Watson-Fisher quotes NC State Head Coach Dave Doeren saying:

It’s a shame it came down to that play where that should never happen; a play that breaks your heart. I was proud of how our guys played for 59 minutes and 59 seconds.”

But there was no explanation for not snapping the ball into the stands or setting up plays to throw down field. No one knows if taking a knee was an option or if there were discussions about simply running around the back of the end zone. There was no clarity on what message Bailey received before the final play.

“It really, really hurts when you lose a game like that where the guys went all in and did a lot of good,” Doeren said.

I want to focus on that last line, “I was proud of how our guys played for 59 minutes and 59 seconds.”

For NC State, they played their game for 59 minutes and 59 seconds.

Two weeks ago, Michigan played their game for 60 minutes and 1 second.

It is baseball that is said to be a game of inches (even though a few years ago the folks in charge of baseball added three inches to the size of base to get rid of the band-bang play, not realizing they only moved the bang 3 inches further away from the bang) and it is good to remember that, baseball, there is no clock.

So it is in football, that it is a game of seconds.

Time.

Clock management.

Charles Taylor raises his ugly head and with that stop watch in his right hand, and calls for the d handled shovel shoveler to get a little more coal out of each movement.

Football is the American Game and we are the only country in the world to call football, soccer.

The columnist George Will once wrote that “Football combines two of the worst things in American life. It is violence punctuated by committee meetings.”

Now I will add, that it’s not whether you win or lose, or how you play the game, but how did you watch that clock that matters.

To update Mr. Will, Football combines three of the worst things in American life. It is violence punctuated by committee meetings while watching the clock run down.”

Truly the American way.

I should, in all transparency, since pointing out that Michigan won on an extra second two weeks that according to USA Today, Before those stunning final seconds in Nashville, teams leading with the ball in the final 10 seconds were 1,046-1 over the past 20 seasons. The only loss during that time was Michigan’s 2015 defeat against Michigan State in the legendary “trouble with the snap” game, but who wants to remember that?

So maybe you will ask, how do defeat the clock in football mentallity?

I point out to you the famous football movie, Remember the Titans and the game where it is revealed that the fix is in against the Titans to lose.

The Defensive Coach destroys the conspiracy with threats of going public … then he turns to the head coach and says …

Run it up Herman … LEAVE NO DOUBT!

Seems my whole life of watching Michigan football, coaches and teams have conspired to play a game they won’t lose instead playing a game to come out and win.

Instead of playing a game where they Run it Up!

Instead of playing a game where they LEAVE NO DOUBT.

Sure you don’t have to play that way.

So long as you are happy to leave the game … in the hand of a clock.