creepy sensation
Another Monday morning
all happened before
Drove to work.
Showed my ID at the gate and parked.
Opened my office door and turned on the lights and the computers.
Took my water bottle to the breakroom to rinsed and refilled with water.
Pick up the day’s Newspapers to read about what had happened prior to the papers going to press.
Another day at work starts.
So many ways, the same as before.
So many ways, so different.
Déjà vu all over again.
when pulled backward
unmistakable pattern
rally, move forward.
Andy: Hope.
Red: Hope? Let me tell you something, my friend. Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane. It’s got no use on the inside. You’d better get used to that idea.
Andy: Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies
From the 1994 movie, The Shawshank Redemption, written and directed by Frank Darabont, based on the 1982 Stephen King novella Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption.
The American Dream
of House, Cars, College, Career
American Burden
It happened before my very eyes.
My oldest brother got a job right out of college and worked for that company for the next 40 years.
Now retired, owns his home and works in his garden.
The American Dream.
I have worked for the same company for 20 years but never a day passes that I don’t worry about the job being eliminated and I find myself having been made redundant.
I look forward to a future funded by my Social Security benefits and a plan to cook at the nearest Waffle House 3 days a week.
For my kids? Welllllll . . .
Over the last 40 years wages have stagnated in real terms while the price of college has risen eight times as fast and the price of health insurance has also outpaced earnings.
If I want to worry I think about the future.
If I really want to worry I think about my kids future.
I understand that the American Dream couldn’t last.
That it had to change.
Did it have to become a nightmare?
Weekend starts tonight
I leave work at 5PM
My mind left last night
I worked three days this week and somehow it has been a long, long week.
Somewhere, Jim Harrison has a passage about how we have yet to equate the energy drain of mental work with the impact of physical labor on a human being.
I quit worrying about ‘job satisfaction’ a long time ago.
Sad that rather than the job well done, I want the job done
Just done.
Done and without a long tail that comes back to me.
I also cannot understand how I came to embrace the TGIF philosophy.
I felt I could enjoy each and every day.
I thought I had that much faith in each day.
Narratives within narratives.
Not sure what that means in this context.
But I liked the phrase and it is too difficult to hammer into a haiku.
The story not yet told.
Anyway, it is Friday!
evolution of
animals elucidated
trilobate death march
I like the words.
From the article titled. “Death march of a segmented and trilobate bilaterian elucidates early animal evolution” by Zhe Chen, Chuanming Zhou, Xunlai Yuan & Shuhai Xiao in
Nature (2019
I am not sure what it means.
The abstract, the quick overview, of the article is even worse.
“The origin of motility in bilaterian animals represents an evolutionary innovation that transformed the Earth system. This innovation probably occurred in the late Ediacaran period—as evidenced by an abundance of trace fossils (ichnofossils) dating to this time, which include trails, trackways and burrows. However, with few exceptions the producers of most of the late Ediacaran ichnofossils are unknown, which has resulted in a disconnection between the body- and trace-fossil records. Here we describe the fossil of a bilaterian of the terminal Ediacaran period (dating to 551–539 million years ago), which we name Yilingia spiciformis. This body fossil is preserved along with the trail that the animal produced during a death march. Yilingia is an elongate and segmented bilaterian with repetitive and trilobate body units, each of which consists of a central lobe and two posteriorly pointing lateral lobes, indicating body and segment polarity. Yilingia is possibly related to panarthropods or annelids, and sheds light on the origin of segmentation in bilaterians. As one of the few Ediacaran animals demonstrated to have produced long and continuous trails, Yilingia provides insights into the identity of the animals that were responsible for Ediacaran trace fossils.”
Spell check had a fit and threw up.
I think it means that fossils of yet un-identified creatures making their final movements before death, left trails, which indicates they were crawling.
This is fascinating.
The use of language is amazing.
I am reminded the extent to which any field quickly moves into a world of its own.
I accept their conclusions based on the evidence the scientists have availably to make these conclusions.
Nevertheless, I recognize the amount, for lack a better term, faith, it may take to accept this as fact.
For myself, it is just as much fact that: “And God said, “Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the vault of the sky.” So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living thing with which the water teems and that moves about in it, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good. God blessed them and said, “Be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the fifth day.” Genesis 1:20-23 (NIV)
