footsteps up the stairs
ache in head starts, builds slowly
inevitable
It started yesterday as a dull point of aching near the top of head.
Hoping I could fight it off, I took some advil.
As usual it had no impact and the dull point of ache slowly expanded to take in more and more of my head.
When I went to bed I knew today would not be a fun day.
It’s isn’t disabling.
Just nagging.
Just there.
I have done profiling, writing journal and recording foods, events and thoughts trying to figure out what triggers these things.
There seems to be no pattern, no rhyme and no reason.
And they usually cannot be stopped.
When I feel that first pulse or throb or echo in my head, I know that anywhere for the next 12 to 36 to 48 hours I will be walking around with one boot off so to speak.
When my sister was in Med School, she explained to me once how it had to do with the capillaries in my brain. She was talking mostly about the use of caffine and how it caused the capillaries to constrict and when you didn’t get the caffine you were used to, the capillaries not only failed to constrict, but actually swelled up a tiny bit in your brain which caused the ache.
Or was it the other way around?
It is these tiny, tiny capillaries that caused the ache.
Of that, I have no doubt.
Through creative visualization, I can see them swelling in my brain, pushing on the nerves.
Not much, mind you.
But enough and slowly, slowly increasing.
How can something so small hurt so big.
I am reminded how much a sliver in my finger hurts.
When the sliver is out, I find it difficult to believe that that tiny piece of wood could have hurt so big.
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