June 9 – Oh anxiety!

Oh anxiety!
It raises its ugly head.
What fresh hell is this?

Trying to work with anxiety rationally, I first had to understand, and it took a long long time, is that there is nothing rational about it.

It just happens.

No expressway signposts.

Anxiety, 35 miles ahead.

Anxiety, this exit.

For me, that was a major day in the fight.

I could not live my life looking out over a minefield of hidden anxiety and expect to find some tool that would guide me through safely.

Anxiety was going to happen.

Now I try to greet my old enemy at the door, quote Dorothy Parker, and go on.

(According to legend and most accounts, when the doorbell rang at her New York Apartment, writer Dorothy Parker would yell out, ” What fresh hell is this?” Sadly, I am not aware of much else that she wrote or said. I will have to do something about this.)

Do I suffer from anxiety or do I suffer because of anxiety?

Maybe, I guess.

Rationally, who wouldn’t?

What fresh hell is this anyway?

June 8 – ODI and NRR?

ICC World Cup?
ODI and NRR?
Well, must be Cricket!

Take off of the old saying, ‘That wouldn’t be circket.”

Some years ago, as a purely academic exercise, I decided to understand the rules of Cricket.

I had just read a wikipedia article about Harold Alexander, 1st Earl Alexander of Tunis, the Allied General who commanded in the Mediaterran Theater when Ike went back to London.

In that article was the line, “Alexander was educated at Hawtreys and Harrow School, there participating as the 11th batsman in the sensational Fowler’s Match against Eton College in 1910.”

Really? The fact that Alexander had played in a famous cricket match was worth mentioning in a life that spanned two world wars, Field Marshall’s rank and finished with Governor General of Canada?

I decided I had to learn this game.

The ICC Cricket World Cup is the international championship of One Day International (ODI) cricket. The event is organised by the sport’s governing body, the International Cricket Council (ICC), every four years, with preliminary qualification rounds leading up to a finals tournament. The tournament is one of the world’s most viewed sporting events and is considered the “flagship event of the international cricket calendar” by the ICC.

10 world teams are invited and all 10 teams play each other to qualify for the 4 team final round.

This means India and Pakistan WILL play each other but more on that another day.

One Day International (ODI) cricket is a game designed to be played in one day (unlike test match cricket which goes on for 5 days.)

Every six LEGAL pitches (no dot balls) is an over and ODI is limited to 50 overs or a game of just 300 legal ptiches.

The NRR or Net Run Rate is the rate of runs being scored per over.

See, it’s Cricket and I am hooked.

June 7 – woke up, no headache

woke up, no headache
no stomach ache, feeling good
of course its raining

While Georgia’s driving skills in snow (non existent, just stay home) are well documented, it is not as well known that when in rains down, Georgia drivers forget how to drive.

Drivers in Georgia are taught from youth to NOT DRIVE in snow and never drive over ice (it might blow up or something, just don’t do it).

They are somewhat prepared for snow and ice.

Rain, however, throws them for a loop and they forget how to drive.

Why they is just as happy as a fox in the hen house to put their emergency blinkers on, drive 45mph and lock on to that spot on the freeway until the rain stops.

It’s an odd phenomena and has to be experience both to be believed and understood.

What with non Georgia drivers skittering all over the freeway, dodging the slow moving Georgians and all the emergency flashers going, its like driving on the surface of a pin ball machine.

Which does lead to accidents.

I counted about 11 accidents just this morning.

Rain.

Ruins my day before its starts.

June 6 – mighty endeavor

mighty endeavor
conquer greed, race arrogance
road will be long, hard

Adapted from the text of Radio Address & Prayer on D-Day, June 6, 1944, by President Franklin D. Roosevelt.

“My fellow Americans: Last night, when I spoke with you about the fall of Rome, I knew at that moment that troops of the United States and our allies were crossing the Channel in another and greater operation. It has come to pass with success thus far.

And so, in this poignant hour, I ask you to join with me in prayer:

Almighty God: Our sons, pride of our Nation, this day have set upon a mighty endeavor, a struggle to preserve our Republic, our religion, and our civilization, and to set free a suffering humanity.

Lead them straight and true; give strength to their arms, stoutness to their hearts, steadfastness in their faith.

They will need Thy blessings. Their road will be long and hard. For the enemy is strong. He may hurl back our forces. Success may not come with rushing speed, but we shall return again and again; and we know that by Thy grace, and by the righteousness of our cause, our sons will triumph.

They will be sore tried, by night and by day, without rest-until the victory is won. The darkness will be rent by noise and flame. Men’s souls will be shaken with the violences of war.

For these men are lately drawn from the ways of peace. They fight not for the lust of conquest. They fight to end conquest. They fight to liberate. They fight to let justice arise, and tolerance and good will among all Thy people. They yearn but for the end of battle, for their return to the haven of home.

Some will never return. Embrace these, Father, and receive them, Thy heroic servants, into Thy kingdom.

And for us at home — fathers, mothers, children, wives, sisters, and brothers of brave men overseas — whose thoughts and prayers are ever with them–help us, Almighty God, to rededicate ourselves in renewed faith in Thee in this hour of great sacrifice.

Many people have urged that I call the Nation into a single day of special prayer. But because the road is long and the desire is great, I ask that our people devote themselves in a continuance of prayer. As we rise to each new day, and again when each day is spent, let words of prayer be on our lips, invoking Thy help to our efforts.

Give us strength, too — strength in our daily tasks, to redouble the contributions we make in the physical and the material support of our armed forces.

And let our hearts be stout, to wait out the long travail, to bear sorrows that may come, to impart our courage unto our sons wheresoever they may be.

And, O Lord, give us Faith. Give us Faith in Thee; Faith in our sons; Faith in each other; Faith in our united crusade. Let not the keenness of our spirit ever be dulled. Let not the impacts of temporary events, of temporal matters of but fleeting moment let not these deter us in our unconquerable purpose.

With Thy blessing, we shall prevail over the unholy forces of our enemy. Help us to conquer the apostles of greed and racial arrogancies. Lead us to the saving of our country, and with our sister Nations into a world unity that will spell a sure peace a peace invulnerable to the schemings of unworthy men. And a peace that will let all of men live in freedom, reaping the just rewards of their honest toil.

Thy will be done, Almighty God.

June 5 – strange business

strange business comes out
grappling barehanded with fate
so inexplicable

Today’s haiku was adapted from a passage from a lecture by Bruce Catton at a meeting of the Chicago Civil War Round Table on April 12, 1957.

Catton said: I do not think that all of us together, vast as our knowledge is, would pretend that we know everything there is to know about the American Civil War. We are much to modest for that: and as the lady in the movie said, we have much to be modest about. Nevertheless, I do think that all of us realize this: that as our knowledge of the Civil War broadens, the area within which we are willing to make hard-and-fast statements of face steadily diminishes. It winds up a mystery: a flaming, heaven-sent mystery, a strange business which comes out of men grappling bare-handed with fate, a complex and inexplicable affair in which ordinary human beings do, finally, confront destiny coming down the road with a shattering question to which no one quite has the answer. The Civil War begins in a mystery and ends in one; all we can be sure of is that along the way we ordinary human beings, rendered extraordinary by their confrontation with fate, coming to grips with something that goes beyond their own horizon.

A recurring theme in these daily haiku’s is that, everyday, people grapple bare-handed with fate, with the cards in their hand.

Everyday there are ordinary human beings, rendered extraordinary by their confrontation with fate.

About Bruce Catton, he may be the first person in my life that I recognized as one of those people who were called ‘authors’ because they wrote books. Catton was also from Michigan and grew up in Benzonia. His book about growing up in Michigan, Waiting for the Morning Train, is a great read and a delight to own.

The first books I was given as gifts were by Bruce Catton.

One summer when I was around 10, my Grand Father rescued a copy of Mr. Lincoln’s Army that was being discarded by the Garfield Park Reformed Church Library and gave to me with the words, “I told them my Grand Son will want this.”

(As an odd note, I have a copy of Waiting for the Morning Train that my Mom planned as a Christmas Gift for my Grand Father in 1972. Sad to say, my Grand Father died that year on December 16th. The book was in my Mom’s room for a long time until she asked if I would want to have it.)

That summer, from that volume of Mr. Lincoln’s Army, my brother Jack read chapters to me at bedtime.

Even today, if I reread the chapter, Crackers and Bullets, I hear it in my head in Jack’s voice, pace and phrasing.

Catton wrote about the Civil War in a way that allowed you to see those men grappling with fate.

Everyday, there are ordinary human beings, rendered extraordinary by their confrontation with fate.