8.29.2023 – misapprehension

misapprehension,
willfully blind, plausibly
ignorant of facts

I had to hammer out some of these words to fit into what I self style a haiku.

The words should have been:

> misapprehension of facts

> willfully blind

> plausible ignorance

These are all terms used in recent newspaper articles to describe legal defenses or legal avenues that can be used to explain the actions of defendants in a this big lawsuit in Georgia.

Nowhere does anyone seem to suggest saying, “I didn’t do it.”

Because they did.

But, with the right wording, what they did was not wrong.

Right wording like a misapprehension of facts.

Right wording like willfully blind.

Right wording like plausible ignorance.

Hard to believe but back in the day I was a 4th grade Sunday School teacher.

I was asked to a be a summer fill in and it lasted 10 years.

(I know that means that if ever I am charged with any type of crime the headline will read, “ONE TIME SUNDAY SCHOOL TEACHER CHARGED WITH …”)

I would do a series of lessons based on the 10 Commandments and I would ask the boys if they tried to follow the 10 commandments.

SURE – YOU BET – OF COURSE they would answer.

Then I would describe a simple scenario for the kids in my class where they, the kids, were at home on a Sunday Morning and their Mom had left a candy bar on the kitchen counter and told them to not touch the candy bar.

In the story the Mom leaves the room and the kid eats the candy bar and when the Mom comes back and asks what happened to the candy, the kid says to himself a certain cuss word and then says out loud, “I don’t know.”

I then said that the kid …

Coveted the candy bar.

Stole the candy bar.

Took the Lord’s name in vain.

Lied about taking the candy bar.

Did not honor his parents.

And since it was on a Sunday, did not honor the Sabbath.

In five minutes, said kid broke 6 of the 10 commandments.

Not bad for a 4th grader.

Then I gave them this scenario.

Same kid and this time, his parents are going out and they say, DO NOT GO TO THE PARK.

The parents leave and the kid rides his bike to the park.

Later when the parents come home, they ask DID YOU GO TO THE PARK?

And the kid says with care, I went for a bike ride.

I would then ask the class, did the kid lie?

The kid DID go for a bike ride.

The kid DID NOT say I DID NOT GO TO THE PARK.

Did the kid lie?

I then pointed out that the commandment says, DO NOT BEAR FLASE WITNESS.

The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

And I let those 4th graders think about it.

Of course the Court Case in Georgia is not about 4th graders but adults.

Adults who maybe should know better.

Adults who probably know about and push the 10 commandments.

As Huckleberry Finn said, and I quoted this just the other day, “Right is right, and wrong is wrong, and a body ain’t got no business doing wrong when he ain’t ignorant and knows better.

8.28.2023 – when your turn is next

when your turn is next
sometimes person went before
is Simone Biles

Watching the latest performance of Simone Biles I am reminded of Jack Buck describing Kirk Gibson’s home run in Game 1 of the Oakland Athletics 1988 World Series.

If you don’t remember, Mr. Buck said, “I don’t believe what I just saw.”

I digress but while a lot of people remember the quote I don’t believe what I just saw, they remember that Vin Scully said it and they are wrong.

Vin Scully said, “In a year that has been so improbable, the impossible has happened.

For my purposes both quotes work.

Watching Ms. Biles, I don’t believe what I just see as she makes the so improbable, the so impossible, happen.

Somewhere in this blog I relay the information that some physicist studied Ms. Biles and with the laws of physics PROVED that what she did was not possible to be done.

Something a long the lines that it takes longer to decide to swing a bat than it does for a pitched ball to reach the plate.

It must be magic.

I am content to leave it there and just enjoy it except that might just not be fair to not recognize the toughness of mind, body and training Ms. Biles has to go through to reach this level of magic.

But an odd thought came to me as I watched a clip of Ms. Biles in action.

As she finished, she ran off the mat and hugged another gynmast.

A gymnast watching the same performance.

A gymnast watching the same performance knowing it was her turn next.

To stand there and NOT SAY, NOPE – NOT ME – SOME ONE ELSE – GOTTA TIE MY SHOE – JUST TAKE THE NEXT PERSON … that alone also takes a lot of magic or something.

What could that next gymnast be thinking?

In the case of Ms. Biles, it does seem that there teammates are some of her biggest fans.

It happens often I guess.

Probably just as bad for the gymnast who went before Ms. Biles.

I remember once hearing a talk by a lawyer about how to handle difficult moments in court.

This lawyer said the dumbest thing you could do was try to hide something that everyone just saw.

You drop your files.

You tip over your coffee.

Don’t act like it didn’t happen, look at the jury and look at the judge and shrug or something.

This lawyer said tell the jury everything, especially as a young lawyer.

He took a question and someone asked what do you do if you are a young lawyer and the opposing attorney was Edward Bennett Williams(at the time a big name), what do you do?

The lawyer said tell the jury.

The lawyer said, tell the jury that you are a brand new, just starting attorney.

Then point to the other lawyer say to the jury, DO YOU KNOW WHO THAT IS?

THAT is Edward Bennett Williams!

Edward Bennett Williams!

DO YOU KNOW WHO THAT IS?

Make sure, the lawyer said, the jury knows who is David and who is Goliath.

The audience had a follow up question.

In that situation, if you are Edward Bennett Williams, what do you do?

Oh, said the lawyer, if you are Edward Bennett Williams, you will know what to do.

I for sorry for those of us who aren’t the Simone Biles of this world.

The race is not always given to the swift.

But in the case of gymnastics …

Like so many things in my life, if I can’t do, I will just enjoy watching those that can.

8.27.2023 – reader is not a

reader is not a
passive recipient but
collaborator

(In the name of transparency, I cannot tell you how this essay turned into a 10 minute read – I just started typing … but thank you in advance for the investment of your time)

It was over 40 years ago but I was thinking of something that happened to me when I was in college.

A lot of things, good and bad, happened to me in college (mostly good) and I was lucky to have gone to a college that did not just welcome independent thinking but demanded it.

I have often told how it wasn’t until I went off to Ann Arbor from my home in Grand Rapids, Michigan, the center of famously conservative West Michigan, that I was asked not IF I was a Christian but WHY was I a Christian and a reasoned argument, based on fact, was expected from me to explain why.

I had the good fortune to got to GRJC, the local community college first so all of my 101 classes were out of the way.

I majored in United States history and for me, looking at the course catalog was like paging through the Sear’s Wishbook at Christmas time.

I remember thinking I GET TO TAKE THIS CLASSES!

Then thinking that as history major, I HAD TO TAKE THESE CLASSES, WAS SUPPOSED TO TAKE THESE CLASSES!

Back in the day students went through something called CRISP or Computer Registration Involving Student Participation.

I have been told by folks older than me that they went through pretty much the same thing but they had to got some huge room were cartons of computer cars were sitting out.

There was one carton for each class on campus.

There was one card for each place in each class.

Students were ushered through tables covered with cartons and if they wanted to take a class, and there was a card for that class, they took it and then took all their cards to the front desk and their schedule for next term was entered into the card reading computers.

CRISP was the same thing but in place of the cartons of cards, we sat with a registrar who had one of the many green or orange display computer terminals hooked into the main schedule database.

We would hand over a piece of paper with our course numbers on it.

The registrar would enter our name, student number and course selection and wait.

At some point, if the system was up, there would show up on the screen, what selections were available and what were not.

If the class wasn’t available, addition slots at different times would be listed along with the option to WAITLIST the class which meant you showed up to see if the Professor would let you into the class.

Because of the wait times in the system, this could go one for hours as you sat with the registrar and searched for classes that fit your schedule as well as your degree requirements.

But not for me.

No one else took the classes I wanted to take.

Like History 677 – The American Colonial Period Through the Documents (Meets in Clements Library).

In a student body of 30,000, there were 6 other students in that class.

I would get to the registrar and announce, “Betcha $5, this scheduled is accepted on the first try!”

The registrar, numb after doing this for the last week, would just glare at me.

The info would get punched in.

There would be a moment.

Then there would be a ding and SCHEDULED ACCEPTED would display on the screen.

EVERYTIME the registrar would look at me and say, “Well, that never happened before.”

There was an occasional class that might be in question due to the popularity of the class or the popularity of the Professor.

One such Professor was Gerald Linderman and his class, the American Experience at War.

The class dealt with all the wars in US history and how the people of United States at home, supported these wars.

Dr. Linderman was known for his lectures and his story telling style as well as his subject matter.

The class was huge for an upper level history course and as he was also known for signing off on any override, there were always over 300 students in his lectures.

The first couple of weeks of class was also a bit a scavenger hunt as more and more students showed up and he kept moving the location of the class to bigger and bigger lecture halls until we ended up in the one of the largest rooms on campus, the auditorium at the MLB or Modern Languages Building.

The size of the class never bothered me as I would get there early to grab a front row seat.

There was a group of us who grabbed these seats and we formed an informal ‘fellowship of the front row’.

After a few weeks of lectures, it was accepted that we of the fellowship had dibs on specific seats and for some reason, the other students in that massive hall left that row and those seats to us.

Along with the lectures was the massive (for today) assigned reading list and the weekly non-mandatory but heavily attended open forum where the readings were discussed.

(This is an awfully long story to get to where I am going but I am going to get there.)

One of the many books we had to read was an autobiography of a US Army Officer fighting Vietnam and it detailed this officer’s efforts to fight the war and save lives and how his efforts were hindered, obstructed and stopped by the US Army’s plan to fight the Vietnam War their way.

This officer told story after story about how dumb the army was and how he tried to overcome this dumbness.

He told how one time he was ordered to gather his unit in an open landing zone in the jungle so his commanding officer could fly in with a helicopter and deliver ice cream to the men.

This officer said that has soon as the CO took of, he stomped on the big round containers of ice cream, mashing them into hot jungle muck.

The book was filled with stories like this.

The stories of dumbness and such got to the point that I said to myself, ‘No Way!’

I had read some on the Vietnam War and what they guy was saying just didn’t ring true.

I took a black magic marker and on the cover of the book I wrote, ‘A GRIM FAIRY TALE’ in big bold letters.

I took my book with me to book discussion and took my seat in the front row and put the book on the fold-out desk in front of me.

Then Dr. Linderman came in and started the discussion.

He made a few remarks and then called for thoughts.

One guy shot out his arm and was recognized.

Well, this guy loved the book.

You couldn’t just raise your hand and say, “I loved the book” and this feller didn’t.

He had a long, well thought out, lucid defense of the book and the author of the book.

The author and the book showed just what was wrong about the Vietnam War he said.

That the author was not supported by the Army was what was wrong about the Vietnam War he said.

The author was a hero and again and again, he was defeated, not by the enemy, but by his own side he said.

This student was passionate as well as arrogant and well prepared with the smugness of knowing they are right.

As he made point after point defending the book, I sank lower and lower in my seat.

This student finished his words and sat back in his chair to no little amount of positive murmurs of agreement throughout the hall.

Several other students spoke out, echoing these this student’s thoughts.

Then there was a pause.

Dr. Linderman stood in front and held the fingertips of his right hand together and touched his lower lip which was his visible signature that he was going to to say something important.

He looked out at us with that look of college Professors that might be called benevolent bemusement.

He looked out at us and said that he always had an issue when he selected books for assigned reading.

He said that his issue was his concern that we (the students) would think that any book on his assigned list had to be good book.

He was concerned that, maybe, we (the students) would accept that any book he assigned should not be questioned.

Dr. Linderman had a way to speak softly that and still be heard though out the room.

His soft way of speaking was an aural definition of the word, earnestness.

He said that the book under discussion was one he had hoped we read and question.

In this case, he said, the book under discussion, was to be questioned because further examination of the officer’s story showed the stories to be false.

He had made most of it up.

So much so that the TV show 60 Minutes had started doing an investigative story based on the charges made in book and the story turned into a story on the lies in the book.

The question of truth would be resolved, Dr. Linderman said, one way or the other, as the officer was sueing 60 Mintues for libel.

In any event, Dr. Linderman said, he was sorry if he seemed disingenuous, but he wanted us to see a different point about the book than the ones just voiced.

I had stopped breathing about halfway through this.

Then the student next to me nudged me hard and reached over and pounded on the cover of me book.

I turned and look at her and she smiled with this great big smile and nodded.

Then she picked up my copy of the book with A GRIM FAIRY TALE written on it and held up for everyone to see in the rows behind us.

In a way, I felt that I had arrived or, at least, I could hold my own.

Like I said, I was lucky

Afterwards I pondered, how did I and that other student get such opposite opinions and feelings from the same book?

Don’t ask me why and it is certainly something I should have been aware of, but I had to realize that the message and meaning of a book, any book, would be different to different people.

Mr. Hemingway once wrote something once along the lines that if you could write in such a way that what you wrote about became a part of the conscious memory of the reader, then you were, indeed, a writer.

When I thought about this, I figured that the same feeling or thought would be applied to every reader.

I did not occur to me that what Mr. Hemingway was describing could and might, maybe only happen to a few or even just one of a writer’s readers.

That does not make it any less true.

And now, finally to the point.

I was reminded of the role of the reader in the in the New York Times guest opinion piece, Stepping Into Raymond Chandlers Shoes Showed Me the Power of Fiction By Denise Mina
(Aug. 26, 2023).

Ms. Mena talks about the Reader-Response theory or the view of literary interpretation associated with the American critic Stanley Fish.

Ms. Mena states that “… the reader-response theory posits that the reader is not a passive recipient of a literary work but a collaborator in that work, reading it through the prism of personal experience.

In effect, each reader, with each reading, creates a new work.

Each generation of readers brings a different sensibility to the text.

Boy Howdy!, but I all I gots to say is Boy Howdy!

The quiet time with a book.

The late night away with a book.

The Sunday afternoon with a book.

It has always been, for the ideal of the passive, peaceful time just to read.

BUT think about this way.

I am NOT the passive recipient of the book but a collaborator!

Reading it through the prism of personal experience.

Reading it through the prism of personal experience that will color my interpretation of the book.

Reading it through the prism of personal experience that changes with time that will color my interpretation of the book.

It is not a quiet time.

It is a look of work .

It is a lot of responsibility!

I accept this charge willingly.

I have read some novels over and over again.

I think I have read the Caine Mutiny over 100 times.

I say I always learn or see something new.

How could I not?

The book hasn’t changed, but I sure have.

At 59th reading, I am not the same person I was, my prism of experience has changed, since the 58th reading.

I am NOT the passive recipient of the book each time I read the same book but a collaborator in creating a new experience!

Maybe I am late to the party thinking about my role as a reader.

I think I understood it better as a student back in those days.

I was reading to learn.

But when does learning end?

More to say on this I am sure, but I have miles to go before I sleep and my shelves are full of books that are waiting for my input.

POSTSCRIPT: SO I have to ask myself, is there a passage of an author’s writing that can inspire, through the reader’s background and personal prism and somehow, arrive a common experience?

I offer the this little bit of text.

Please read it and tell me what you think …
[Who] can help but remember the ecstatic thrill of eating this sensuous dessert fresh from the kitchen? Out it came, two thick discs of buttered biscuit pastry or sponge cake separated and slathered with warm crushed and sugared ripe strawberries that dripped in rivulets down the sides. If you wanted to be fancy, you spread a layer of whipped cream over the top and garnished the cake with a few perfect whole berries, but serious shortcake lovers demanded no further enhancements than pitchers of more crushed berries and thick cream to pour on at will.”

From Strawberry Shortcake in Villas at table : a passion for food and drink
by James Villas, (New York : Harper & Row 1988)

8.26.2023 – night and day sometimes

night and day sometimes
we live without noticing
or overtrying

Based on the poem Carpe Diem by Jim Harrison

Night and day
seize the day, also the night —
a handful of water to grasp.
The moon shines off the mountain
snow where grizzlies look for a place
for the winter’s sleep and birth.
I just ate the year’s last tomato
in the year’s fatal whirl.
This is mid-October, apple time.
I picked them for years.
One Mcintosh yielded sixty bushels.
It was the birth of love that year.
Sometimes we live without noticing it.
Overtrying makes it harder.
I fell down through the tree grabbing
branches to slow the fall, got the afternoon off.
We drove her aqua Ford convertible into the country
with a sack of red apples. It was a perfect
day with her sun-brown legs and we threw ourselves
into the future together seizing the day.
Fifty years later we hold each other looking
out the windows at birds, making dinner,
a life to live day after day, a life of
dogs and children and the far wide country
out by rivers, rumpled by mountains.
So far the days keep coming.
Seize the day gently as if you loved her.

Carpe Diem” by Jim Harrison from Dead Man’s Float, (Copper Canyon Press, 2016)

I enjoy this poem. 

Carpe Diem.

Or Seize the Day or more accurately Seize the Present!

And why?

Quam minimum credula postero.

For tomorrow, a new day comes.

Sunset on the May River from the bluff in Bluffton, SC 8/26/2023

8.25.2023 – 9653 or

9653 or
1135809
all there in the words

In 1920, Eugene V. Debs, in jail over charges of sedition for statements he made about the United States and WWI, ran for President as the Socialist Party Candidate.

In, 2023, Donald J. Trump was arrested on charges based on statements he made about the 2020 Presidential election.

Debs was imprisoned in the Federal Petitionary in Atlanta.

Trump was booked in Atlanta.

Debs’ inmate number was 9653.

Trump’s booking number was P0-1135809.

There are some similarities there

But similarities cease when we leave their numbers for their words.

During his trial, Debs said:

Your honor, I ask no mercy, I plead for no immunity. I realize that finally the right must prevail. I never more fully comprehended than now the great struggle between the powers of greed on the one hand and upon the other the rising hosts of freedom. I can see the dawn of a better day of humanity. The people are awakening. In due course of time they will come into their own.

Prior to his attest, Trump said:

Can you believe it? I’ll be going to Atlanta, Georgia, on Thursday to be ARRESTED by a Radical Left District Attorney, Fani Willis. She campaigned, and is continuing to campaign, and raise money on, this WITCH HUNT. This is in strict coordination with crooked Joe Biden’s DOJ.

At his sentencing, Debs said:

Your Honor, years ago I recognized my kinship with all living beings, and I made up my mind that I was not one bit better than the meanest on earth. I said then, and I say now, that while there is a lower class, I am in it, and while there is a criminal element, I am of it, and while there is a soul in prison, I am not free.

After being released on bail, Trump said:

I really believe this is a very sad day for America, and it should never happen. If you challenge an election, you should be able to challenge an election. I thought the election was rigged election, a stolen election, and I should have every right to do that. As you know, you have many people that you’ve been watching over the years do the same thing, whether it’s Hillary Clinton or Stacey Abrams or many others. When you have that great freedom through challenge, you have to be able to otherwise you can have very dishonest elections. What has taken place here is a travesty of justice. We did nothing wrong. I did nothing wrong.

It’s all there.

All there beyond numbers.