3.26.2022 – here with little on

here with little on
my mind and going nowhere
in particular

Growing up in West Michigan with an eye on reading, I was aware of the writing of Niles, Michigan native, Ring Lardner.

Mr. Lardner was a sportswriter who also wrote short stories, many of which, “Alibi Ike” and “You Know Me, Al” were short stories based on sport.

If you happened to see the 1988 (1988???) movie, “8 Men Out” about the Chicago Black Sox scandal, Ring Lardner is the sportswriter the movie follows to tell the story.

When the movie was made, Lardner’s son, Ring, Jr., was on the set as a consultant and Ring, Jr. said he could not be on the set when the director, John Sayles, who also played the part of Ring, Sr. was in costume as he looked so much like his father.

Like I said, I have always been aware of Mr. Lardner’s writing.

It was said that no one wrote dialogue like Mr. Lardner or as one person put it, his mastery of idiosyncratic vernacular.

If you grew up in West Michigan and you knew of Mr. Lardner and you read anything he wrote that wasn’t about baseball, you most likely read the short story, The Golden Honeymoon, the story that takes place in the 1920’s about a couple from West Michigan that celebrates their 50th wedding anniversary with a month long trip to Florida.

It is written is a way that you can hear the man narrating the trip and telling the entire story – and its quite a story – all in one sitting without taking a breathe.

In a bizarre magical way it starts out rolling and the words don’t stop and all of sudden it is over and you have spent the last 30 minutes of your life in real time on a month long trip to Florida.

Here is a snippet –

I felt sorry for Hartsell one morning. The women folks both had an engagement down to the chiropodist’s and I run across Hartsell in the Park and he foolishly offered to play me checkers.
It was him that suggested it, not me, and I guess he repented himself before we had played one game. But he was too stubborn to give up and set there while I beat him game after game and the worst part of it was that a crowd of folks had got in the habit of watching me play and there they all was, looking on, and finally they seen what a fool Frank was making of himself, and they began to chafe him and pass remarks. Like one of them said:
“Who ever told you you was a checker player!”
And:
“You might maybe be good for tiddle-de-winks, but not checkers!”
I almost felt like letting him beat me a couple games. But the crowd would of knowed it was a put up job.
Well, the women folks joined us in the Park and I wasn’t going to mention our little game, but Hartsell told about it himself and admitted he wasn’t no match for me.
“Well,” said Mrs. Hartsell, “checkers ain’t much of a game anyway, is it?” She said: “It’s more of a children’s game, ain’t it? At least, I know my boy’s children used to play it a good deal.”
“Yes, ma’am,” I said. “It’s a children’s game the way your husband plays it, too.”

You can read the short story here.

It colored my view of making any trip to Florida to this day!

So why was I thinking about Ring Lardner this morning?

I was thumbing through another book by James Thurber titled the Years with Ross, about the operation of the New Yorker Magazine and its founder, Harold Ross.

Ross claimed, so Thurber wrote, that [Ross] “asked Lardner the other day how he writes his short stories, and he said he wrote a few widely separated words or phrases on a piece of paper and then went back and filled in the spaces.

And I came across this passage.

The 1933 scroll was charged with all kinds of things for H. W. Ross. The Depression, which had been aimed directly at him, was still holding on, though getting better (1934 was to be one of the New Yorker’s best financial years). Hitler had risen to power, the banks had closed, Prohibition was soon to become a sorry memory, and the Roosevelt family had come to Washington, thus supplying “Talk of the Town” with dozens of anecdotes and the art department with dozens of idea drawings. In 1933 Ring Lardner died, and the morning World came to an end – major sorrows that saddened Ross and all of us.

It struck me that Thurber, recounting the good and bad that happened in 1933, the fact that Ring Lardner died was enough to make it bad year.

And I thought about that a good long while.

If nothing else it made want to dig out and read Mr. Larder over again.

With little on my mind and going nowhere in particular, its a great day to read.

Doing so I came across the line of words that I assembled into today’s Haiku.

As Frank Lloyd Wright might have said, “there you are.”

3.25.2022 – started machine, can’t

started machine, can’t
stop it, someone else runs it
yet I started it

Adapted from the play, The Cocktail Party (1950) by one Thomas Stearns Eliot, better known by his initials of T. S.

In the play, the character named Lavinia says:

I don’t know why. But it seems to me that yesterday
I started some machine, that goes on working,
And I cannot stop it; no, it’s not like a machine—
Or if it’s a machine, someone else is running it.
But who? Somebody is always interfering . . .
I don’t feel free . . . and yet I started it . .

What is going on?

The pace of each week seems to pick up faster and faster and its Friday when last night was Friday night when we went out for dinner but it wasn’t last night, it was a week ago.

Somewhere someone said years fly, days crawl.

This machine is running and running faster and I started it.

But when did I start it?

I am reminded of a scene in a Jim Harrison book where the hero, now in his 70s finds his journals written in his 20’s.

Our hero reads them, saying to himself, “My God, what will the fool do next.”

3.24.2022 – cannot think of a

cannot think of a
time that is oceanless have
no destination

Adapted from the passage:

Where is the end of them, the fishermen sailing
Into the wind’s tail, where the fog cowers?
We cannot think of a time that is oceanless
Or of an ocean not littered with wastage
Or of a future that is not liable
Like the past, to have no destination.

in Four Quartets, Dry Passages, Part II by TS Eliot.

3.23.2022 – wrestled reality

wrestled reality
thirty five years and happy
won out over
it

Just once I want to pick up a dictionary and read out loud, “P O O K A – Pooka – from old Celtic mythology – a fairy spirit in animal form – always very large. The pooka appears here and there – now and then – to this one – and that one – a benign but mischievous creature – very fond of rumpots, crackpots, and how are you, Mr. Hoffman?”

Call it chance, mischance, luck, dumb luck or something else but something seems to always being watching out for me, especially when I don’t know it.

I have learned to stop wondering why and sit back and enjoy the ride.

Nevertheless, goofy good things happen to me and have happened to me all my life.

Tonight, I turn on the TV and Harvey was on.

Sorry but I am not sorry and I cannot turn it off.

Too many great lines and performances in this one.

The gem of it of course is the exchange with between Elwood P. Dowd and Dr. Chumley.

CHUMLEY – I would tell her things. Things that I’ve never told to anyone. Things that are locked – deep in here. And as I talked to her, I would want her to hold out a soft white hand and say ‘Poor thing. You poor, poor thing.’

ELWOOD – For how long would you want this to go on, Doctor?

CHUMLEY – Two weeks.

ELWOOD – Two weeks?! Uh – wouldn’t that get a little monotonous? Just Akron, cold beer and ‘poor, poor thing’ for two weeks?

CHUMLEY – No! It would be wonderful!

A story is told that Steven Spielberg want to remake Harvey around 2009 but Tom Hanks said there was no way he would ever DARE try to play Jimmy Stewart.

As an aside, Walter Matthau tells the story that in WW2 when he was in the Air Force in England, he would sneak into 8th Air Force Press Briefings handled by Captain Jimmy Stewart and he would watch Jimmy Stewart being Jimmy Stewart.

Tonight I focused on the line, “Well, I wrestled with reality for thirty-five years, and I’m happy to state I finally won out over.”

I like it so much, I’ll say it again.

Well, I wrestled with reality for thirty-five years, and I’m happy to state I finally won out over.

Nothing about this real world is real.

Happy to say I embrace, wholehearted an alternative reality and my reality isn’t here.

Who thinks these things and writes these things down but that these things were supposed to be written and some folks got chosen to write them down.

And with that I turn to the my favorite lines in the movie.

. . . as the evening wore on.
“The evening wore on.”
That’s a very nice expression, isn’t it?
With your permission, I’ll say it again.
“The evening wore on.”

And with your permission, I’ll say it again, ‘the evening wore on’ and I am going to bed.

3.22.2022 – sulking, suffering

sulking, suffering
optional but pain – pain is
unavoidable

Adapted from the line, “Going around in a sulk will get you nowhere. Pain is unavoidable, but suffering is optional.” in the book, A Long Petal of the Sea, by Isabel Allende.

Ms. Allende, according to Wikipedia, has been called the world’s most widely read Spanish-language author.

Who am I to argue with that.

And I read her stuff in english?

It does make me want to learn to read Spanish to see if its different.

The point in the book where Ms. Allende writes this line, one of the main characters is adjusting to the changes in his life since turning 60.

I should be able to relate somewhat and maybe even to the pain he might be feeling or experiencing.

Then I think about his life as recounted in the book.

He fought in the Spanish Civil War on the losing side in the late 1930s.

He was a refuge after the war in France.

He lost his father and brother and maybe his mother (she returns later) in the war.

Surviving being a refuge, he makes a life in Chile until the right wing take over again destroys everything in his life and he ends up a political prisoner in the 1970s.

Rescued he works to make a life in Venezuela and to adjust being 60.

I guess I wouldn’t have much to relate to in the way of pain and suffering after all.

Ms. Allende then writes, “Entropy is the natural law of the universe, everything tends toward disorder, to break down, to disperse. People get lost, feelings fade, and forgetfulness slips into lives like mist. It takes heroic willpower just to keep everything in place.

And I really had to puzzle over this.

I really need to learn Spanish because this made little sense to me though it seemed so simple, so basic.

What was I missing?

It hit me that back in college one of roommates was always talking about entropy.

He was studying geological engineering (he went to invent a bomb for the Air Force that will go through 100s of feet of rock before it explodes) and to him, and because of him, I thought of entropy as a thermodynamic quantity representing the unavailability of a system’s thermal energy for conversion into mechanical work.

And I just couldn’t see where Ms. Allende was going.

Was this lost on translation?

I thought of copying the passage into the Google translator and then translate that back into English to see what happens.

But that seemed like a lot of work.

Was there another use of the word, Entropy?

Into the google we go and glad I did as there is another meaning.

In this situation, I am sure Ms. Allende meant Entropy to mean “a lack of order or predictability; gradual decline into disorder”

That works.

That works nicely.

The lack of order or predictability; the gradual decline into disorder, is the natural law of the universe, everything tends toward disorder, to break down, to disperse.

People get lost, feelings fade, and forgetfulness slips into lives like mist.

It takes heroic willpower just to keep everything in place.

On the other hand, the radio was playing Beethoven’s 1st Piano Concerto as I typed this out.

When it finished, the program presenter commented, with an honest enthusiasm in his voice, “As fresh as it was the day it was written!”

Thinking the way I was thinking about disorder and gradual decline, this statement made me think.

As fresh as it was as the day it was written.

Written by Beethoven when he was 24.

And we have had access to it since then.

A hedge against disorder.

A wall against decline.

It didn’t breakdown, disperse or get lost in the mist.

The heroic willpower of a 24 year kid keeping everything, well, somethings, in place for all us for centuries.

Pain is unavoidable.

Sulking and suffering are optional.

Just one more reason I am grateful God created music.