3.12.2020 – found thoughts to exchange

found thoughts to exchange
discreet, trusty witnesses
of a mystery

Search for someone to talk to continues.

Someone who with whom to exchange thoughts.

A discreet witness.

A trusty witness.

A discreet and trusty friend.

Some one not to whom you can share in a mystery.

The mystery is the friendship.

They mystery is where to find this friend.

Mr. Sandburg writes, “The moon is a friend for the lonesome to talk with.”

I don’t want to talk to the moon.

I want to talk to a friend.

Mr. Sandburg continues, “The moon is at once easy and costly, cheap and priceless.
The price of the moon runs beyond all adding machine numbers.

I counter, “A friend is at once easy and costly, cheap and priceless.
The price of a friend runs beyond all adding machine numbers.”

I read and re-read Mr. Sanburg’s poem looking for clues.

I am slugged in the stomach by the line, “We shall always be interfering with each other, forever be arguing.”

Yet maybe the clue is here, “The price of the moon is an orange and a few kind words.

A few kind words.

A few kind words that then lead to thoughts to exchange.

Discover again discreet, trusty witnesses.

Uncover again the mystery of being a friend.

Moonlight and Maggots by Carl Sandburg

The moonlight filters on the prairie.
The land takes back an old companion.
The young corn seems pleased with a visit.
In Illinois, in Iowa, this moontime is on.
A bongo looks out and talks about the look of the moon
As if always a bongo must talk somewhat so in moontime –
The moon is a milk-white love promise,
A present for the young corn to remember.
A caress for silk-brown tassels to come.
Spring moon to autumn moon measures one harvest.
All almanacs are merely so many moon numbers.
A house dizzy with decimal points and trick figures
And a belfry at the top of the world for sleep songs
And a home for lonesome goats to go to –


Like now, like always, the bongo takes up a moon theme –
There is no end to the ancient kit-kats inhabiting the moon:
Jack and the beanstalk and Jacob’s ladder helped them up,
Cats and sheep, the albatross, the phoenix and the dodo-bird,
They are all living on the moon for the sake of the bongo –
Castles on the moon, mansions, shacks and shanties, ramshackle
Huts of tarpaper and tincans, grand real estate properties
Where magnificent rats eat tunnels in colossal cheeses,
Where the rainbow chasers take the seven prisms apart
And put them together again and are paid in moon money –
The flying dutchman, paul bunyan, saint paul, john bunyan,
The little jackass who coughs gold pieces when you say bricklebrit –
They are all there on the moon and the rent not paid
And the roof leaking and the taxes delinquent –
Like now, like always, the bongo jabbers of the moon,
Of cowsheds, railroad tracks, corn rows and cornfield corners
Finding the filter of the moon an old friend –
Look at it – cries the bongo – have a look! have a look!

Well, what of it? comes the poohpooh –
Always the bongo isa little loony – comes the poohpooh,
The bongo is a poor fish and a long ways from home.
Be like me; be an egg, a hardboiled egg, a pachyderm
Practical as a buzzsaw and a hippopotamus put together.
Get the facts and no monkeybusiness what I mean.
The moon is a dead cinder, a ball of death, a globe of doom.
Long ago it died of lost motion, maggots masticated the surface of it
And the maggots languished, turned ice, froze on and took a free ride.
Now the sun shines on the maggots and the maggots make the moonlight.
The moon is a cadaver and a dusty mummy and a damned rotten investment.
The moon is a liability loaded up with frozen assets and worthless paper.
Only the lamb, the sucker, the come-on, the little lost boy, has time for the moon.

Well – says the bongo – you got a good argument.
I am a little lost boy and a long ways from home.
I am a sap, a pathetic fish, a nitwit and a lot more and worse you couldn’t think of.
Nevertheless and notwithstanding and letting all you say be granted and acknowledged
The moon is a silver silhouette and a singing stalactite.
The moon is a bringer of fool’s gold and fine phantoms.
On the heaving restless sea or the fixed and fastened land
The moon is a friend for the lonesome to talk with.
The moon is at once easy and costly, cheap and priceless.
The price of the moon runs beyond all adding machine numbers
Summer moonmusic drops down adagio sostenuto whathaveyou.
Winter moonmusic practices the mind of man for a long trip.
The price of the moon is an orange and a few kind words.
Nobody on the moon says, I been thrown out of better places than this.
No one on the moon has ever died of arithmetic and hard words.
No one on the moon would skin a louse to sell the hide.
The moon is a pocket luckpiece for circus riders, for acrobats on the flying rings, for wild animal tamers.
I can look up at the moon and take it or leave.
The moon coaxes me: Be at home wherever you are.
I can let the moon laugh me to sleep for nothing.
I can put a piece of the moon in my pocket for tomorrow.
I can holler my name at the moon and the moon hollers back my name.
When I get confidential with the moon and tell secrets
The moon is a sphinx and a repository under oath.

Yes Mister poohpooh
I am a poor nut, just another of God’s mistakes.
You are the tough bimbo, hard as nails, yeah.
You know enough to come in when it rains.
You know the way to the post office and I have to ask.
They fool you the first time but never the second.
Thrown into the river you always come up with a fish.
You are a diller a dollar, I am a ten o’clock scholar.
You know the portent of the axiom: Them as has gits.
You devised that abracadabra: Get all you can keep all you get.

We shall always be interfering with each other, forever be arguing –

you for the maggots, me for the moon.
Over our bones, cleaned by the final maggots as we lie recumbent, perfectly forgetful, beautifully ignorant –
There will settle over our grave illustrious tombs
On nights when the air is clear as a bell
And the dust and fog are shoveled off on the wind –
There will sink over our empty epitaphs
a shiver of moonshafts
a line of moonslants.

3.11.2020 – call for normalcy

call for normalcy
meant to say normality
he said normalty

A candidate for the Presidency has called for a Return to Normalcy.

I have to ask, is the Candidate or the campaign handlers aware of the history of “Return to Normalcy?”

After 10 ballots and discussions in a smoke filled room, Warren G. Harding came out of the 1920 Republican Convention in Chicago as the party’s candidate for President.

Mr. Harding ran on the slogan, “Return to Normalcy.”

Saying in a speech in Boston on May 14, 1920, Mr. Harding said, “America’s present need is not heroics, but healing; not nostrums, but normalcy; not revolution, but restoration; not agitation, but adjustment; not surgery, but serenity; not the dramatic, but the dispassionate; not experiment, but equipoise; not submergence in internationality, but sustainment in triumphant nationality.”

I was taught that the speech was written as “not nostrums, but normality.”

I was also taught that the candidate delivered the speech as “not nostrums, but normalty.

My teaching went on that the press of the day in quoting the speech wrote down “not nostrums, but normalcy.

What was said, heard and recorded became a side story of the 1920 campaign.

According to an article in the Guardian, “Samuel Gompers complained that “Senator Harding does not use the word ‘normal’. He speaks of ‘normalcy’. The word is obsolete, and so is the condition to which he would return”.

And the Daily Chronicle of London kept the embers warm by sneering, in April of 1921, “Mr. Harding is accustomed to take desperate ventures in the coinage of new words.”

Poor Warren G Harding: “normalcy” had been in use (albeit in specialized contexts) from 1857, as had all other words he was accused of having coined in equal parts idiocy and elitism.

But his legacy was quickly established. “His mind was vague and fuzzy”, Frederick Allen writes in 1931:Its quality was revealed in the clogged style of his public addresses, in his choice of turgid and maladroit language (“non-involvement” in European affairs, “adhesion” to a treaty), and in his frequent attacks of suffix trouble (“normalcy” for normality, “betrothement” for betrothal).” Obama didn’t use improper grammar. Cut him and other public figures a break (Oct 29, 2018)

What is fascintating is Mr. Harding’s defense of the word.

Mr. Harding took on a Trumpian point of view and to deny that use of the normalcy was incorrect.

He went so far to say that normality was not a word and stated publicly, “I have noticed that word caused considerable news editors to change it to “normality”. I have looked for “normality” in my dictionary and I do not find it there. “Normalcy”, however, I did find, and it is a good word.”

So the Candidate wants a return to nomalcy.

I have no problem with that.

Presidential campaigns have been noted for repeated stumbles, miscues and mental lapses.

And this campaign looks to Harding for inspiration?

Maybe it will work out for them.

As Mr. Harding himself said later, “Every student has the ability to be a successful learner.”

3.10.2020 – No enthusiasm

No enthusiasm
stuck in a rut, routine, meh
No motivation

Meh.

It is a real word.

A word in the dictionary/

A word expressing a lack of interest or enthusiasm.

As an adjective, uninspiring or unexceptional.

According to wikipedia, meh’s popularity surged after its use on the American animated television series The Simpsons. It was first used in the 1994 episode “Sideshow Bob Roberts”, when a librarian reacts to Lisa’s surprise that voting records are not classified.

Meh was added to the Collins Dictionary of the English Language in 2008.

I call it stuck.

Stuck in a rut.

The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders describes stuck in a rut as dysthymia — the mild, chronic cousin of depression, the symptoms of which are low energy, low mood, loss of interest, and general anhedonia (loss of pleasure).

I got that from the article 10 Signs That You’re in a Rut by Tania Luna in the magazine, Psychology Today.

She writes:

Let’s talk rut diagnosing, beginning with a checklist. The more items you find yourself checking off, the more likely that you are stuck.

10 – Day to day, you don’t look forward to much (other than maybe sleeping or just getting through whatever you’re doing).

9 – You’d like to get your creative juices flowing, but it seems someone left an empty juice bottle in the fridge.

8 – Even though you keeping checking things off your to do list, it doesn’t feel like you are getting much done.

7 – Your days all blur together, and it’s not weird to look up blinking and ask, “Is this Tuesday or Thursday?”

6 – By the time you get “free time” you are too tired to do something interesting with it or are just plain unmotivated.

5 – If you answered “How are you?” genuinely, you’d say something like, “Meh.”

4 – You fantasize about getting away (and not just away on vacation).

3 – You’d like to add something new to your life, but you’re sure that you’ll never have enough time and/or energy for it.

2 – You’re getting sick of hearing yourself complain about feeling stressed, tired, and unfulfilled.

1 – … and the Number One rut symptom: Even though you think you’d be happier if you made a change, it’s more comforting to stay the same and mope about it.

I scored 10 for 10.

Maybe I got this dysthymia.

Maybe it’s March, before the madness.

Maybe it’s Corona fatigue.

Maybe it’s Election Fatigue.

Maybe it’s the 10 days of rain in the forecast.

Maybe.

Meh.

3.9.2020 – joy in the morning

joy in the morning
before beginning of time
his own purpose, grace

My day started with news of the birth of my grand daughter, Lenox Jean.

My wife had spent the night at the hospital and was there for the birth at about 5:30 this morning.

When she got home she was shining with love and excitement.

Joy exuded from every part of her being.

She told the story of how the night wore on.

How my daughter did.

What the Doctor said.

What the Nurse said.

How long it took.

Then the moment when Lenox arrived.

How big she is.

How long she is.

Thinking back over history, how many times have these stories been told.

The story line is pretty much the same.

Recently the long awaited mystery of boy or girl has been taken out of the chapter headings and relegated to a sort of preface.

Used to be this was the part of the story everyone was waiting for.

Now we get the statistical data and the stories.

And start to look ahead.

Lots of blank pages yet to filled with words and thoughts and acts.

I am reminded of the verse from the Bible that says;

“He has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace.
This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time.” (2 Timothy 1:9 NIV)

Before the beginning of time.

Grace was given us.

Regardless of how the pages get filled.

Not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace.

Joy in that thought.

Joy that comes in the morning.

3.8.2020 – Google, map my life

Google, map my life
Creatively visual
Alerts and Warnings

Creatively visual.

Creative visualization.

I want to see a map of my life to come.

A google map.

A map with alerts and warnings of things up ahead.

In an earlier post, I quoted C.S. Lewis’ Screwtape letter XII where Lewis said, “Indeed the safest road to Hell is the gradual one–the gentle slope, soft underfoot, without sudden turnings, without milestones, without signposts.”

Is the absence of warnings and alerts in my life an indication of the direction I am going?

I don’t think so.

Am I stupid.

Yep.

Am I prideful.

Yep Yep.

Am I stiff necked stubborn in a way that calls to mind the stories of the people of Israel under the Judges.

YEP YEP YEP.

The truth is, my path is full of warnings and alerts.

I am just too stupid, prideful and stubborn to accept help or adive.

Or at the least accept help or advice in a way other than I want to hear it.

In the same way I ignore the warnings and alerts about my daily drive to work, I ignore much of the information I get on the road of my life ahead.

If I had a map.

If I a had an app.

If had pop ups and texts telling me what was I coming, would I change my route?

Nope.

I am reminded of the story about the feller caught in a flood over in Mississippi.

He was sitting on his front stoop when a cop car came by.

The cops told it was time to evacuate.

The man said not to worry, he had prayed about it and was trusting in God to save him.

The water kept rising and the man had to go the 2nd floor of his house and was looking out his window when a boat came by.

The men in the boat told him to hop in.

The man said not to worry, he had prayed about it and was trusting in God to save him.

The water kept rising and the man was now on the roof of his house and a helicopter flew by.

We can get you said the men in the helicopter.

The man said not to worry, he had prayed about it and was trusting in God to save him.

The water kept rising and the man drowned.

He got to heaven and said to God, “I trusted you to save me!”

God said, “Look feller, I sent a cop car, a boat and a helicopter!”