5.7.2020 – just be by myself

just be by myself
feel evening breeze, gaze at moon
I lost my senses

Stay at home.

Quaruntine.

Is it any wonder we are losing our senses.

As someone said, the problem with common sense is that is it so uncommon.

The words of that old cowboy poet, Cole Porter, keep coming back to my mind.

Okay, so Cole Porter stole the words or came by the words in such a way that a court had to decide they were his.

Not the Roy Rodgers way now is it.

But the words are there anyhow they came to be.

I just don’t like fences.

Oh give me land, lots of land, and the starry skies above
Don’t fence me in
Let me ride through the wide open country that I love
Don’t fence me in

Let me be by myself in the evening breeze
And listen to the murmur of the cottonwood trees
Send me off forever but I ask you please
Don’t fence me in

Just turn me loose, let me straddle my old saddle on
Underneath the western skies
On my cayuse, let me wander over yonder
Till I see the mountains rise

I want to ride to the ridge where the West commences
To many words, gaze at the moon till I lose my senses
And I can’t look at hobbles and I can’t stand fences
Don’t fence me in

Oh give me land, lots of land, and the starry skies above
Don’t fence me in
Let me ride through the wide open country that I love
Don’t fence me in

(for what its worth, Mr. Porter said it was his least favorite song. Go figure?)

5.5.2020 – bridges toll, bells toll

bridges toll, bells toll
toll as death toll totals climb
along life’s tollway

Toll.

The cost.

A charge payable for permission to use a particular bridge or road.

And the number of deaths, casualties, or injuries arising from particular circumstances, such as a natural disaster, conflict, or accident.

Or the sound or cause to sound with a slow, uniform succession of strokes, as a signal or announcement.

As well as taking a toll.

Or, have an adverse effect, especially so as to cause damage, suffering, or death

Such a sad word.

Too many applications.

Heard too often.

5.2.2020 – need a solution

need a solution
to a problem, first admit
there is a problem

The United States of America is a big country.

For every 1000 residents, you will have 1000 opinions and points of view that have a right to be heard.

It is difficult to achieve a consensus let alone unanimity on any topic.

It takes a lot to change peoples minds.

Back in May of 1941, a nationwide poll showed that 80% of Americans were against getting involved in World War 2.

On December 8, 1941, the day after the attack on Pearl Harbor, FDR’s request for a declaration of war against JAPAN passed with one NO vote.

Note this was a war against the Empire of Japan.

The United States did NOT declare war on Germany.

Germany, so far, had not done anything to the United States.

The US got into the European war at that time only because Hitler declared war on the United States on December 8th.

I would have put this current emergency up there.

While I would not expect that everyone could agree on how to handle Covid, I would have thought there was agreement that we need to do something.

Silly me.

But then I would have bet my last dollar that it was against the law to carry an M16 into the State Capitol Building in Lansing, Michigan.

In my nuttiest, most US Constitution embracing moment, I never would have thought that the 1st Amendment right to assembly would have given me the right to stand face to face with the Michigan State Police while carrying a loaded assault rifle in the rotunda of the State Capitol.

I just can’t imagine it.

I want to stay away from that argument and focus on the mindset.

As Atticus Finch famously says in “To Kill a Mockingbird“, “You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view… until you climb in his skin and walk around in it.”

Let me try to get into the shoes of those protestors in Lansing.

I am thinking of one feller who was captured on the network news, standing face to face with a Michigan State Police Trooper, and screaming something.

There was no audio so I don’t know what he was screaming.

But this feller woke up that morning.

Got dressed in his camouflage so he wouldn’t stand out, I guess.

Got his coffee and his rifle and drove to Lansing to defend his rights.

Not exactly the Lexington Minute Men gathering on the village green to confront the redcoats but close enough in his mind.

Our feller parks his car and gets out and assembles with his fellow countrymen outside the Capitol Building.

At some command or order or maybe just a mass rush, the assembly moves into the building and our feller finds himself in the front row.

The next thing he knows, he is in the Rotunda of the Capitol, surrounded both by his buddies but also by glassed cabinets of flags that circle the Rotunda.

Flags of the volunteer regiments of the State of Michigan that decided Black Lives Matter and that the Union was worth preserving and marched off to the Civil War.

One of those flags is the flag of the 16th Michigan Volunteer Infantry.

A member of Company C of that Regiment was 18 year old, Edwin Barlow.

Private Barlow was my Great-Great Grand Father.

Back to our feller, who is now explaining to the State Trooper why he and his friends are there and what they want.

Feller seems to be quite agitated and explaining himself very loudly.

The Troopers don’t move or react.

The Troopers don’t arrest anyone.

Though, like I said, I would have bet my last dollar it was a crime to bring a loaded AK-47 into the State Capitol or engage a State Trooper while carrying a loaded AK-47 but that is beside the point.

After a bit our feller leaves with his buddies.

After exchanging farewells with the assembly our feller goes back to his car and drives home.

He gets home and hangs his rifle over the fireplace.

He goes to the fridge and gets a beer.

Does his wife greet him with a hug and a ‘Good Job Honey’ hug?

Does he sit in his rocker or his lazy-boy and review the day?

Does he feel satisfaction in delivering his message to the man.

Does he feel like he delivered his message that we are fed up and can’t take it anymore?

I am trying to follow Mr. Finch and understand a person by considering things from his point of view,

I am trying to climb into his skin and walk around in it.

I am trying to understand why I don’t want to wear a mask.

I am trying to understand why I don’t want to stay home.

I am trying to understand why I don’t want to protect myself, my family and other people by not risking the spread if this illness.

Or am I missing it?

Am I the problem here that I don’t feel threatened by my Government as they bass ackwards try to figure all this out.

Am I deluded by the bread and circuses.

Maybe.

But I just can’t get comfortable in that feller’s shoes up in Lansing.

I often refer to problems as Charlie Sheen problems.

The 1st problem Charlie Sheen needs to deal with is that Charlie has to admit he has a problem.

If he doesn’t see a life focused on drugs and alcohol as a problem, then there is nothing to be fixed.

What is the problem right now?

What is the biggest problem?

That’s my problem.

4.28.2020 – there are decades when

there are decades when
nothing happens, there are weeks
when decades happen

I am quoting Vladimir Ilyich Ulyanov or as he was better known, Vladimir Lenin.

So what?

Later on I will also be quoting Marx.

ANYWAY . . .

I have aged 10 years in the couple of months.

I say that as the last couple of months have lasted 10 years.

Or is it that the last couple of months seem like one long day.

If it has been one long day, a month of these days would be years long.

Thirty days hath September,
April, June, and November,
all the rest have thirty-one
Except for April which has 8000

Groucho Marx once said, “My favorite poem is the one that starts ‘Thirty Days Hath September…’ because it actually means something

I have no idea what he would say about any of this but I am sure it would be funny.

Most likely he would have said, “It’s quitting time in New York.”

Mr. Groucho did say “I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.

That would suit me fine right now.

If I listen to Mr. Marx and Mr. Lenin, and if I have just that one day, today.

Then I am going to be happy in it.

That that day is lasting forever is not such a bad thing.

4.26.2020 – uncertainty cheats

uncertainty cheats
concentration, attention
stress accumulates

Reading today in The Guardian in the article, We live in stressful times, a perfect moment to try to turn off and tune out, Nosheen Iqbal writes:

The zapping of our concentration and attention spans may seem anecdotal, but there is substantial neuroscience to explain it. Living through a pandemic plugged with sadness, fear and uncertainty is a mind soup designed to tip us off balance. Rationally, I know this. Studies have shown time and again that the impact of stress on the brain robs it of its ability to process information, retain it and focus. Be it big-picture worries or everyday life adjustments, stress accumulates.

Uncertainty.

Who?

What?

Where?

When?

How?

Any answers for any of these?

How?

Nope.

When?

Nope.

Where?

Nope.

What?

Nope.

Who?

Who?

I watched Dr. James Merritt this morning from the church we attend here in Georgia.

Dr. Merritt answered the “who” question.

He said, “When you don’t know what God is doing, remember WHO God is.”

I was quick to pass this off as once again as Christian’s we are to focus on Eternity.

Christ provides us with Eternity.

Isn’t that enough even with faced with the uncertainty of every day life?

Isn’t that enough when finances are messed up.

Well, yes.

Isn’t that enough when toilet paper runs low?

Well, yes.

Isn’t that enough when uncertainty is every where.

Well, yes, but.

BUT!

But when money runs low, when toilet paper runs out, when uncertainty manages to steam roll every other emotion, the promise of Eternity, and this sounds so shallow, can be pretty thin gruel.

I get it, but up against the daily dose of stress, Eternity can seem a long way off.

Then Dr. Merritt threw me for a loop and hit one for six out of the park.

Because Dr. Merritt didn’t turn to the New Testament and the promise of salvation to make his point.

Dr. Merritt went to the Old Testament and the much un-read book of Habakkuk.

Dr. Merritt focused on Chapter 3 verses 17-18, Habakkuk prays,

“Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.”

Uncertainty in everyday life, Old Testament style.

No crops.

No sheep.

No cattle,

What, where, why, how?

Not sure.

Who?

The answer to Who, is God.

And when the money runs low and there are no crops/

When the toilet papers runs out and there are no sheep.

When uncertainty hangs on every other question.

And I will remember who God is.

I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.

Bring on that uncertainty.

It don’t stand no chance.