5.26.2024 – our time has seen that

our time has seen that
impulse going to war – seen
the circle complete

North and South they assembled, one cry and the other cry,
And both are ghosts to us now, old drums hung up on a wall,
But they were the first hot wave of youth too-ready to die,
And they went to war with an air, as if they went to a ball.

Dress-uniform boys who rubbed their buttons brighter than gold,
And gave them to girls for flowers and raspberry-lemonade,
Unused to the sick fatigue, the route-march made in the cold,
The stink of the fever camps, the tarnish rotting the blade.

We in our time have seen that impulse going to war
And how that impulse is dealt with. We have seen the circle complete.
The ripe wheat wasted like trash between the fool and the whore.
We cannot praise again that anger of the ripe wheat.

This we have seen as well, distorted and half-forgotten
In what came before and after, where the blind went leading the blind,
The first swift rising of youth before the symbols were rotten,
The price too much to pay, the payment haughty in kind.

So with these men and then. They were much like the men you know,
Under the beards and the strangeness of clothes with a different fit.
They wrote mush-notes to their girls and wondered how it would go,
Half-scared, half-fierce at the thought, but none yet ready to quit.

From John Brown’s Body by Stephen Vincent Benét, (Garden City, N. Y., Doubleday, Doran and Company, 1928).

That line there about the flowers.

About the flowers and raspberry lemonade.

Painting with words and scents and tastes in a way that anyone can feel it.

Not imagine it, but feel it.

The cool glass, the sweet liquid on the tongue, the smell of the flowers and pretty girls.

Back in the day when I worked in the Public Library I was cataloging a small collection of letters of one Byron Root Piece.

Dr. Pierce was a Dentist in Grand Rapids, Michigan back in the 1860’s.

I have always been attracted to Dr. Pierce as my Dad was also a Dentist from Grand Rapids, Michigan and ended up a Dentist in the Army of the United States in World War 2.

Dr. Pierce was also a captain of a militia company, the Valley City Light Guard and when Mr. Lincoln’s call for volunteers came, the company joined up and became part of the 3rd Michigan Volunteer Infantry.

Capt. Pierce served with distinction through the war with the Army of the Potomac and ended his career in the army as a Major General of Volunteers.

His grave in Fulton Street Cemetery in downtown Grand Rapids is marked with a small red flag with the two stars of a Major General.

He became a fixture of Decoration Day in Grand Rapids and he lived to the age of 95 and was Michigan’s last Civil War General when he died in 1924.

And I was transcribing letters written by him and too him during the Civil War.

The letters were mostly chatty and about nothing in particular.

Some gossip about Grand Rapids, some thoughts about life in the Army.

There was this one letter from General Pierce’s brother written sometime in the Spring of 1863.

The brother wrote the lines of, “Sorry you missed Sunday Dinner at Fathers. The dessert was Strawberry Shortcake. I did a double duty and ate yours for you.”

Understand this was written in the days before refrigerators or ice boxes.

The strawberries could not have been more than a day off the vine, if not picked that Sunday morning and still warm from the sunshine.

The biscuits could have been, might have been, hot out of the oven.

The cream was from cows milked that morning.

More than 100 years later, John Thorne would write about Strawberry Shortcake: “A bite of real strawberry shortcake is a mouthful of contrast. The rich, sweet cream, the tart juicy berries, and the sour, crumbly texture of hot biscuit all refuse to amalgam into a single flavor tone, but produce mouth-stimulating contrasts of flavor — hot and cold, soft and hard, sweet and tart, smooth and crumbly. The mouth is alert and enchanted at once.”

Painting with words that let you not just imagine it, but feel it.

Flowers and Raspberry Lemonade.

Strawberry Shortcake.

So then the contrast with the next stanzas of Mr. Benét’s poem can hit hard.

So with these men and then. They were much like the men you know.

Half-scared, half-fierce at the thought, but none yet ready to quit.

Painting with words that let you not just imagine it, but feel it.

Some thoughts on Memorial Day Weekend, 2024.

General Pierce, a Dentist from Grand Rapids, Michigan – Center with beard

5.25.2024 – whose bodies lie in

whose bodies lie in
city, village, and hamlet
church-yard in the land

The 30th day of May, 1868, is designated for the purpose of strewing with flowers or otherwise decorating the graves of comrades who died in defense of their country during the late rebellion, and whose bodies now lie in almost every city, village, and hamlet church-yard in the land. In this observance no form of ceremony is prescribed, but posts and comrades will in their own way arrange such fitting services and testimonials of respect as circumstances may permit.

General Order No.11, WASHINGTON, D.C., May 5, 1868

On May 5, 1868, General John A. Logan, as Commander-in-Chief of the Grand Army of the Republic (GAR), issued General Order No. 11 designating May 30 “for the purpose of strewing with flowers or otherwise decorating the graves of comrades who died in defense of their country during the late rebellion.”

Logan’s General Order, his Memorial Day Order, established Memorial Day as a national holiday.

BTW, Private Edwin Barlow is my Great Great Grand Father.

You can read about him here.

5.24.2024 – I live in the past

I live in the past
have to admit it is more
comfortable there

A few weeks ago I was talking movies with one of the younger people on the staff and I mentioned The Good, The Bad and The Ugly.

He had never seen it.

I mentioned Patton.

He had never seen it.

I mentioned The Maltese Falcon.

He had never seen it.

I asked, for crying out loud, what movies had he been watching?

“Movies that had been released in the last 20 years,” he said.

He had me there.

I couldn’t think of but a handful of ‘new movies’ that I had seen or at least remembered seeing.

This morning, The Guardian had a list of the top 100 books of the last 20 years.

I felt that here I would be on much firmer ground.

I like to read.

I like to think I read EVERYTHING.

I scanned the list of top 100 books of the last 20 years … and recognized 3.

I knew some of the authors.

But for the most part …

The book the author picked as their best book was Wolf Hall.

I think I got through three pages and it was walking though wet cement and I dropped it.

So what do I read then?

My Kindle’s are so full, I have to delete books and keep floating libraries on my google drive.

I am always reading.

Always reading the same thing.

Little known and less read titles on history and biography and the type of fiction that catches my interest.

And old novels.

Novels I first read years ago.

Novels that I have read and re-read over and over again.

I am comfortable with those books.

I like how they were written.

I know how they end.

Maybe if I was a kid when I first read them, when I read them now, I am a kid again.

I am comfortable with old movies.

I like how they were made.

I know how they end.

Maybe if I was a kid when I first saw them, when I see them now, I am a kid again.

In a kids world you don’t worry much about who is President, or which country is mad at which country or even what the price of gas is.

Who wouldn’t want to be a kid again?

For a lot of reasons, I live in the past.

Mostly, though, I am more comfortable there.

5.23.2024 – lights on the water

lights on the water
shrimp boats tied up to the dock
shrimp, shrimpers on break

Night time at the shrimp docks.

We went hoping to see the northern lights but the lights we saw were on the boats at the Hudson’s Restaurant on the shrimp dock.

The shrimp boat were tied and the shrimpers were inside at the bar.

What do the shrimp do when not being caught?

Do they know they shrimpers are taking a break.

Do they sigh in relief that they made it through another day?

Do they look at each other and say, ‘What a day!’ or ‘That was a close one!’

Do they gather at a bar an exchange stories of close calls with all those things that want to eat them?

Do they live in ignorance that their world is filled with all those things that want to eat them?

Or do they live with the goal that they might someday be a part of some magical dish of shrimp served in a waterside restaurant where they are the end of someone else’s day.

Maybe next time I order a shrimp boil, I will think of this.

But I hope not.

5.22.2024- chief item in the

chief item in the
little library of hours
away from our lives

Recently reading The receptionist : an education at the New Yorker by Janet Groth (Chapel Hill, N.C. : Algonquin Books of Chapel Hill, 2012), I came across this passage where Ms. Groth reflects on her relationship with poet John Berryman.

Ms. Gorth writes: Since I could not watch John make his poems, the next best thing was to watch him teach. As a poet-teacher he so invested his ego in his work that he was ego-free, a fleshless, selfless lover and sharer of enlightenment, pure spirit. This part of him is neither personal nor notorious nor recorded anywhere at all except in his poems and in the memories of his students, where he exists as the chief item in the little library of hours we’ve brought away from our lives in the university.

I liked that last line, “ … and in the memories of his students, where he exists as the chief item in the little library of hours we’ve brought away from our lives in the university.

Or more specifically, “… the little library of hours we’ve brought away from our lives.”

I am reminded of Mr. Bernstein in the movie Citizen Kane.

Mr. Thompson, the reporter digging into the life of Charles Foster Kane questions Mr. Bernstein’s thoughts that maybe ‘Rosebud’ was some girl Mr. Kane met.

Mr. Thompson says, “It’s hardly likely, Mr. Bernstein, that Mr. Kane could have met some girl casually and then, fifty years later, on his death bed —

And Mr. Bernstein says (Note* if you haven’t seen the movie, read this passage slowly – pause after each line to get the effect of an old man thinking back 50 years):

Well, you’re pretty young, Mr…er…Mr. Thompson.

A fellow will remember a lot of things you wouldn’t think he’d remember.

You take me.

One day, back in 1896, I was crossing over to Jersey on a the ferry and as we pulled out there was another ferry pulling in.

And on it there was a girl waiting to get off.

A white dress she had on.

She was carrying a white parasol.

I only saw her for one second. and She didn’t see me at all.

But I’ll bet a month hasn’t gone by since that I haven’t thought of that girl.

The little library of hours we’ve brought away from our lives.

That little library of hours we’ve brought away from our lives.

Filled with chief items.

Multiple chief items.

I like that.

I like that a lot.