10.11.2021 – began to wonder

began to wonder
just the decision to be
free on your own terms

Came across this quote the other day:

And I began to wonder if just the decision to be free on his own terms isn’t, in itself, defiantly political. And I wonder if his search for some type of grace – and his celebration of beauty where he can find it – is not also deeply political. Particularly now, and at the time when we were making this film, when in the US there was this relentless, grotesque debasement of language, of thinking, of journalism, specifically of writers. I wonder if the celebration of those things is not, in some ways, a manning of the barricades in and of itself. Maybe it’s one of the most powerful things we can do, when faced with as much vulgarity as we’ve been faced with in the last few years.

It is a quote from the actor, Jeffrey Wright.

Mr. Wright was commenting on the role he plays in the upcoming movie, “The French Dispatch.

The movie is reported to be a look at the workings of the New Yorker Magazine in the 1930’s.

(I am really looking forward to this movie.)

Mr. Wright plays a character modeled after writer James Baldwin.

James Baldwin is the HIS in the above quote, ‘free on HIS own terms.’

I have so many thoughts about this movie and the people in it and Mr. Baldwin and everything else that there may be 10 or 20 posts for this quote.

But for today it is the thought on language that I want to focus on.

Today makes the 1st anniversary of the day I ended my 20 year career in television news.

In the world of Journalism I was a technician who worked to make the news available online.

That doesn’t mean I didn’t care about the content.

I wanted GOOD stories and more than that, I wanted them written well.

Often I felt I was a lone voice in the overwhelming babble of words spilling out of news rooms.

I will long remember talking to another staff member who came out of a meeting with a news director with a big smile.

“I just got this great tip!” he said, “SVO!”

SVO I said to myself.

LOL, IMHO, SMH but SVO?

So I asked,

SVO?

“SUBJECT, VERB, OBJECT!”, he replied.

Hours little I was still at my desk with tears coming down my cheeks.

Tears of pain, laughter and frustration all at once.

I think back to Professor Henry Higgins and why can’t we learn to speak.

I fought this battle for 20 years.

I totaled up nothing but losses year after year.

Not only was I fighting our education [sic] system.

I was fighting online news (FAST and FIRST) as well as the inventions of texting and tweeting and saying everything in 140 characters.

Spelling and grammar didn’t even make into the life boats.

The line of Mr. Wright’s that says “in the US there was this relentless, grotesque debasement of language.”

Was?

IS!

Often I love to reading someone’s writing just for the way it is written as much as what was written about.

Often I love to watch movies just to watch the acting in the movies as much as what the movie is about.

It is a craft.

I remember this story told by Winston Churchill.

I want to say it was John F. Kennedy who said (which means it was speech writer Ted Sorensen who wrote) that Churchill, “Armed the English Language and sent it into battle.”

Not to pick on JFK for using other writer’s stuff.

FDR is reported to listened to a speech of Mr. Churchill’s and said, “He is great. Find out who writes his stuff.”

Thinking about stuff got me to thinking about stuff.

Back in the day I worked at bookstore named Waldenbooks in North Kent Mall on the North End of Grand Rapids, Michigan.

After many years, I actually made it being the store manager.

My dear friend Denise was the store manager at the Waldens in Woodland Mall on the south end of Grand Rapids, Michigan.

The two malls were as different as the airports at Atlanta Hartsfield-Jackson and the one on Hilton Head Island.

One Christmas season I was told that to send someone on my staff out to the Woodland store to help out.

I had to tell my District Manager that no one on my staff would do it.

He then told me that I would be working at Woodland.

Which was okay with me.

After years in working mall retail bookstore I liked to think that I had delvelped a high level of customer service along with the ability to ‘read my audience.’

I had got to the point that I enjoyed the holiday rush.

I could keep a line of customers moving, keep an eye on my staff and maintain an entertaining (well at least to me) course of continuous banter with the people in line.

I had an apt comment about the purchase, the season, the weather and the time of day.

I was able to involve the customer who was leaving, the customer currently being waited on and the next customer in line in a rolling conversation that lasted as long as my shift.

I was happy to take my show on the road and try it out on the Woodland Mall folks.

As I remember it the time I spent at Woodland Mall that Christmas was a lot of fun.

As I remember it, the staff at the Woodland Mall Waldenbooks had never worked with someone quite like me before and they were both amused and amazed at what I could get away with in my sales desk banter.

I clearly remember working with the manager, my friend Denise (who was a high level professional bookseller in her own right – as an accolade from me, they don’t come much higher) and we got to a lull.

We stepped back from the counter and she said something along the line that working with me was … an experience.

“You know what?’, I said, “I am using my best stuff and only the customers in line get to hear it.”

Denise looked at me for a second or two and started laughing and shaking her head.

“You,” she said, “are the only sales clerk I ever heard of with ‘STUFF’.”

But I digress.

Mr. Churchill was a lot of things, some acclaimed and some not.

For his writing, (Dear Winston, Thank you for your latest book. I have put it on the shelf with the others. Sincerely, King George V), I think there is universal admiration for his craft.

How did Mr. Churchill acquire this craft?

Mr. Churchill himself wrote that while in school at Harrow:

“being so long in the lowest form I gained an immense advantage over the cleverer boys.

They all went on to learn Latin and Greek and splendid things like that.

But I was taught English.

We were considered such dunces that we could learn only English. Mr. Somervell — a most delightful man, to whom my debt is great — was charged with the duty of teaching the stupidest boys the most disregarded thing — namely, to write mere English.

Teaching the stupidest boys the most disregarded thing.

Namely, to write mere English.

S.

V.

O.

QED.

*[SIC] used in this case with the meaning, ‘as it is understand’. I adapted this from the student publications of The Georgia Institute of Technology who embraced this usage in such terms as ‘The University [SIC] of Georgia’

10.10.2021 – summer came and went

summer came and went
quickly, summer for people
who are not children

Adapted from the line:

“The summer came and went quickly which is the nature of summer for people who are not children, those lucky ones to whom clocks are of no consequence but who drift along on the true emotional content of time.”

from The Summer he Didn’t Die – A Brown Dog Novella, by Jim Harrison

Me and grand daughter Dallas

10.9.2021 – experience this

experience this
awkward unanswerable
be modern question

Adapted from the book, The Architecture of Happiness (2009, Vintage Books) by Alain de Botton, and the passage:

What is a beautiful building? To be modern is to experience this as an awkward and possibly unanswerable question, the very notion of beauty having come to seem like a concept doomed to ignite unfruitful and childish argument. How can anyone claim to know what is attractive? How can anyone adjudicate between the competing claims of different styles or defend a particular choice in the face of the contradictory tastes of others? The creation of beauty, once viewed as the central task of the architect, has quietly evaporated from serious professional discussion and retreated to a confused private imperative.

According the The New York Review of Books, this is “A perceptive, thoughtful, original, and richly illustrated exercise in the dramatic personification of buildings of all sorts.”

What I find irrestible in reading Mr. de Botton is his use of language.

I get the feeling that if you made a spread sheet of all the words, adverbs and adjectives used by Mr. de Botton, you just might find that he used each word just once.

Neat trick in writing a book.

If I knew how to do that, I would.

10.8.2021 – relentless, grotesque

relentless, grotesque
debasement of language
search for type of grace

Came across this quote the other day:

And I began to wonder if just the decision to be free on his own terms isn’t, in itself, defiantly political. And I wonder if his search for some type of grace – and his celebration of beauty where he can find it – is not also deeply political. Particularly now, and at the time when we were making this film, when in the US there was this relentless, grotesque debasement of language, of thinking, of journalism, specifically of writers. I wonder if the celebration of those things is not, in some ways, a manning of the barricades in and of itself. Maybe it’s one of the most powerful things we can do, when faced with as much vulgarity as we’ve been faced with in the last few years.

It is a quote from the actor, Jeffrey Wright.

Mr. Wright was commenting on the role he plays in the upcoming movie, “The French Dispatch.

The movie is reported to be a look at the workings of the New Yorker Magazine in the 1930’s.

(I am really looking forward to this movie.)

Mr. Wright plays a character modeled after writer James Baldwin.

James Baldwin is the HIS in the above quote, ‘free on HIS own terms.’

I have so many thoughts about this movie and the people in it and Mr. Baldwin and everything else that there may be 10 or 20 posts for this quote.

But for today it is the thought on language that I want to focus on.

Today makes the 1st anniversary of the day I ended my 20 year career in television news.

In the world of Journalism I was a technician who worked to make the news available online.

That doesn’t mean I didn’t care about the content.

I wanted GOOD stories and more than that, I wanted them written well.

Often I felt I was a lone voice in the overwhelming babble of words spilling out of news rooms.

I will long remember talking to another staff member who came out of a meeting with a news director with a big smile.

“I just got this great tip!” he said, “SVO!”

SVO I said to myself.

LOL, IMHO, SMH but SVO?

So I asked,

SVO?

“SUBJECT, VERB, OBJECT!”, he replied.

Hours little I was still at my desk with tears coming down my cheeks.

Tears of pain, laughter and frustration all at once.

I think back to Professor Henry Higgins and why can’t we learn to speak.

I fought this battle for 20 years.

I totaled up nothing but losses year after year.

Not only was I fighting our education [sic] system.

I was fighting online news (FAST and FIRST) as well as the inventions of texting and tweeting and saying everything in 140 characters.

Spelling and grammar didn’t even make into the life boats.

The line of Mr. Wright’s that says “in the US there was this relentless, grotesque debasement of language.”

Was?

IS!

Often I love to reading someone’s writing just for the way it is written as much as what was written about.

Often I love to watch movies just to watch the acting in the movies as much as what the movie is about.

It is a craft.

I remember this story told by Winston Churchill.

I want to say it was John F. Kennedy who said (which means it was speech writer Ted Sorensen who wrote) that Churchill, “Armed the English Language and sent it into battle.”

Not to pick on JFK for using other writer’s stuff.

FDR is reported to listened to a speech of Mr. Churchill’s and said, “He is great. Find out who writes his stuff.”

Thinking about stuff got me to thinking about stuff.

Back in the day I worked at bookstore named Waldenbooks in North Kent Mall on the North End of Grand Rapids, Michigan.

After many years, I actually made it to being the store manager.

My dear friend Denise was the store manager at the Waldens in Woodland Mall on the south end of Grand Rapids, Michigan.

The two malls were as different as the airports at Atlanta Hartsfield-Jackson and the one on Hilton Head Island.

One Christmas season I was told that to send someone on my staff out to the Woodland store to help out.

If you worked at North Kent Mall your biggest challenge might be staying awake to the end of your shift.

If you worked at Woodland Mall you had to be nuts.

Well, maybe you did not have to be, but it helped.

When I was told that I had to send some of my staff to Woodland, I had to tell my District Manager that I asked but no one on my staff would do it.

He then told me that I would be working at Woodland.

Which was okay with me.

Most folks will agree I WAS a bit nuts.

And after years in working in a mall retail bookstore I liked to think that I had developed a high level of customer service along with the ability to ‘read my audience.’

I had got to the point that I enjoyed the holiday rush.

Yes, I WAS nuts.

I could keep a line of customers moving, keep an eye on my staff and maintain an entertaining (well at least to me) course of continuous banter with the people in line.

I had an apt comment about the purchase, the season, the weather and the time of day.

It was like a long string of one liners that I could recycle over and over as the audience constantly changed.

I was able to involve the customer who was leaving, the customer currently being waited on and the next customer in line in a rolling show that lasted as long as my shift.

I was happy to take my show on the road and try it out on the Woodland Mall folks.

As I remember it the time I spent at Woodland Mall that Christmas was a lot of fun.

As I remember it, the staff at the Woodland Mall Waldenbooks had never worked with someone quite like me before and they were both amused and amazed at what I could get away with in my sales desk banter.

I clearly remember working with the manager, my friend Denise (who was a high level professional bookseller in her own right – as an accolade from me, they don’t come much higher) and we got to a lull.

We stepped back from the counter and she said something along the line that working with me was … an experience.

“You know what?’, I said, “I am using my best stuff and only the customers in line get to hear it.”

Denise looked at me for a second or two and started laughing and shaking her head.

“You,” she said, “are the only sales clerk I ever heard of with ‘STUFF’.”

But I digress.

Mr. Churchill was a lot of things, some acclaimed and some not.

For his writing, (Dear Winston, Thank you for your latest book. I have put it on the shelf with the others. Sincerely, King George V), I think there is universal admiration for his craft.

How did Mr. Churchill acquire this craft?

Mr. Churchill himself wrote that while in school at Harrow:

“being so long in the lowest form I gained an immense advantage over the cleverer boys.

They all went on to learn Latin and Greek and splendid things like that.

But I was taught English.

We were considered such dunces that we could learn only English. Mr. Somervell — a most delightful man, to whom my debt is great — was charged with the duty of teaching the stupidest boys the most disregarded thing — namely, to write mere English.

Teaching the stupidest boys the most disregarded thing.

Namely, to write mere English.

S.

V.

O.

QED.

*[SIC] used in this case with the meaning, ‘as it is understood‘. I adapted this from the student publications of The Georgia Institute of Technology who, to this day, embrace this usage in print with such terms as ‘The University [SIC] of Georgia

**Please honk if you get the wit here

*** … don’t worry of you don’t honk. Along with the debasement of language, I also mourn the decline of true wit in America. One of the last known uses of wit I am aware of concerns, to my dismay but giving credit where credit is due, the Michigan State University [SIC] Basketball Band. Back in the FAB FIVE era, Michigan’s Fab Five, depending on the story you read, was accused of ‘taking beer from a store without paying’ and ‘stealing beer’. The next time Michigan played at MSU, as the team ran out on the court, the MSU Basketball band played ‘Roll Out the Barrel’. To this day, I wonder who thought that one up for them.

10.7.2021 – couple of phone calls

couple of phone calls
world changed, changes, timing
leave the story to
. . .

A year ago my life changed.

I logged into a zoom meeting for a work meeting and there was someone I had never met before already in the meeting.

She was introduced to me as a HR rep.

That, is rarely a good thing.

I was informed that after 20 years, my services were no longer needed, required or wanted by my company and that my employment by the company would end in three days.

That three days was up a year ago today.

Like I said, this type of information is rarely a good thing.

I am not stupid or at least I like to think that and evidence that this zoom meeting was coming had been evident for some time.

For one thing the company wasn’t making money like it used too.

And there was covid and that wasn’t helping much.

Much more to say and you all the know these stories but the point is I knew I was sitting on this economic track and I could see the train coming and if you going to sit on the track when the train comes …

But that’s my story for today, one year ago.

Most of the time, most of these stories, most often are most awful to read about and worse to experience.

And that would have been the case for me had I not, that very morning, had a conversation with another person with another company located in another place.

Like I said, I knew I was sitting on that track so I had been looking for ways to get off and I had applied for a job over on the coast of South Carolina.

Truth be told I was applying for any job, every job, anywhere and everywhere and this application went out to the coast of South Carolina as kind of ‘might as well’.

I had had several interviews with this place and actually was invited to visit the location and meet people but there was one person, a Vice President of the company, who wanted a face to face meeting with me and she was stuck in Toronto by Covid.

After months of waiting for Covid restrictions to change, this VP gave up and decided she would have to be okay with a phone interview and she called me THAT morning and we talked for over an hour.

It was such a nice conversation that when my wife left to go to the store, I told her that I halfway expected to get another call later that day about my job future.

Then I took part in that ZOOM meeting and was informed of a change in my job future.

Talk about conflicting feelings.

I called my wife to tell her that, yes, I did have a call about my job future but it wasn’t the news that I had hoped to get.

Still, overall, I had the feeling that something wonderfully weird was going on.

Something so wonderfully weird that I understood I was just a person in the story, not the person writing the story.

It got weirder in a wonderful way when that afternoon, a couple of hours after that zoom meeting, I did get another phone call from those nice people asking if I could schedule one more phone call for the next morning as the people at this place had one more question for me.

Nothing to lose, everything to gain, I told them to call anytime as my calendar was unexpectedly empty.

I was just in this story, not writing it.

The call I got the next day was a job offer.

The question the people had for me was, when can I start?

I said Monday.

They said take two weeks.

Two weeks and then move to the beach.

It has been a year since this all happened.

I still have to tell myself that this all really happened really.

It is a God thing, we like to say.

The peace that passes ALL UNDERSTANDING.

I am comfortable with that.

Some folks are maybe more comfortable with Rogers and Hammerstein and the thought expressed by Julie Andrews in the Sound of Music where she says, “Where the Lord closes a door, somewhere He opens a window.”

In my case, God didn’t just open a window, he came in with an electric drill and removed the entire Steelcase panel just like the guy in the movie, ‘Office Space.’

I want to ask why and what did I do to deserve this but I will keep quiet and keep those thoughts to myself.

I won’t ask questions but I will express my wonder and appreciation at being a part of this story.

I don’t know why but that doesn’t mean I will not say thank you.

Say thank you everyday if not every minute that I am living in this story.

It is a peace that passes ALL UNDERSTANDING.

The timing is beyond belief.

With my long known disregard of facts that might stand in the way of a good story, this is how it all went down.

This is how I ended up working at the beach.

This is how I ended being paid to live in a resort town.

It was and still is, a God Thing.

I thank God for it.

And I am content, amazed to have Him write my story.